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Though I have never been in the theatre. Here, as in the theatre, every man plays some part, pretends, puts on a face, does he not?
Why does he do so? Do you like this, father? I beg you to tell, but only tell me everything, everything; for father, I want you to be my master, my light--you are so wise, so respected, so great!"
"Enthusiasm put sparks into her dark eyeb.a.l.l.s which were turned up to her father's face. Darvid stroked her pale, golden hair.
"My dear child," said he, "my little one!" After a while he added: "Are you a wild girl from Australia or Africa to ask me such questions? You have seen visits from childhood. Have you not seen your mother receiving many visitors, also?"
"Yes, yes, father; but mamma amuses herself with them, and is taking Ira into society. But what are visits to you? Are you amusing yourself, also?"
"How amuse?" laughed Darvid, "they annoy me oftenest of all, though an odd time they give me pleasure."
"What pleasure?"
"You do not understand this yet. Relations, position in the world, significance."
"What do you want of significance, father; why do you wish for a high position in society? What profit does significance give?
Does it give happiness? See, father, I know one little history--Miss Mary's father, an English clergyman, has a parish in a poor, far-away corner, where there are no people of significance, and no rich men, but there are many poor and ignorant people there; and he has significance only among those poor people--that is, he has no significance whatever, still he is so happy, and all those people are so happy. They love one another, and live together. It is so warm and bright in that pastor's house, there, among the old trees. Miss Mary came away from there to get a little money for her youngest sister, whom she loves dearly. She lives pleasantly here, but she yearns for her family, and has told me so much of them; and some time, father, I will beg you to let me go with Miss Mary to England, to that poor country parish, and see that great, warm, bright happiness which exists in it."
Tears glittered like diamonds in her gleaming eyes, and Darvid, with his arm around her slender waist, stood silent, in deep meditation. That child, by her questions, had let his thoughts down, as if by a string, to the bottom of things, at which he had never looked before--he had had no time. He might tell her that high significance in the world tickles vanity, flatters pride, helps, frequently, to carry business to a profitable conclusion--that is to pecuniary profit. He might confess to himself, also, that that English clergyman, in his quiet parsonage, under his ancient trees, seemed to him a very happy man all at once in that moment. After a while, he said:
"It must be so. Happiness and unhappiness are one thing for poor people, and another for the rich."
He looked at the clock.
"But now--"
"Now, I have no time!" laughed Cara. "No, no, father, two minutes more, a minute more--I will ask about something else."
"You will ask more!" exclaimed he, with such a laugh as he had hardly ever given.
"Yes, yes--something even more important than the last. I am troubled about it--it pains me so--"
She changed from foot to foot, and embraced her father with all her strength, as if fearing that he might run away.
"Did father mean really to say that one should not uphold the poor, the hungry, the sorrowful, the sad, nor comfort them; that it is only necessary to leave them so that they may die as soon as possible? When father said that I felt sick in some way. Mamma and Ira this long time support two old men, so gray and nice, whom Miss Mary and I visit often. Do mamma and Ira do badly?
Should we let them die as soon as possible from hunger? Brrr! it is terrible! Does father think so really, or did he only say what he did to get rid of those gentlemen the more quickly? Father you are good, the best, a dear, golden father. Do you really believe what you said, or was it to get rid of those men? I beg you to answer me, I beg you!"
This time her eyes were fixed on his face, with a gleam which was almost feverish, and again he stood in silence, filled with astonishment. Why could his mouth not open to tell that girl his profoundest conviction?
With all the wrinkles between his brows, he said, without a smile:
"I said that to get rid of them; I wished to be rid of those gentlemen as quickly as possible." The soles of Cara's feet struck the floor time after time with delight.
"Yes, yes! I was sure of that! My best, dearest father--"
Stroking her hair, he added:
"We must be kind. Be kind always. Keep the life in gray-haired, nice old men. You will never lack money for that."
She kissed his hands; suddenly her glance fell on her father's desk, and she cried:
"Puffie! Puffie! where have you climbed to? There you are, you have crawled on to the desk and done so much mischief!"
The ash-colored little dog was on the great desk of the celebrated financier, on the top of a huge pile of papers; he was sitting with his nose against a window pane, growling at crows that were flying past and cawing. In that study, which was so dignified as to be almost solemn, Cara's laughter was heard in silver tones:
"Look, father, how angry he is! He is angry at the crows! Oh, how he sticks his little nose up when one of them flies past. Do you see, father?"
"I see, I see! Never has such a dignified a.s.sistant been in charge of my desk. Oh, you little one!"
He put his arm around her and pressed her to his bosom, briefly, but heartily. Through his head pa.s.sed at that moment the recollection of something unimportant which he had seen on a time: a golden sun-ray, which, flas.h.i.+ng from behind clouds, had torn them apart, and disclosed a strip of clear azure beyond. He saw this through a window of a railroad car, mechanically, as we see things to which we are indifferent. Now he remembered it.
"The carriage is ready!" called the servant from the anteroom.
"You are a little giddy-head," said Darvid, looking at the clock.
"I should have left the house a quarter of an hour ago."
She ran to bring his hat, and gave it with a low bow. Stooping quickly she raised a glove which he had dropped.
"Don't forget to leave Puffie here to keep my papers in order!"
With this jest on his lips he went to the antechamber, but, while putting on his fur and descending the stairway, he thought of the auction, where he was to buy a house sold for debt--an excellent investment.
"Is Pan Maryan at home?" asked Darvid of the Swiss at the street door.
The Swiss learned from servants that the young master was sleeping yet.
"What a miserable method of life! I must put a curb on this wild buck immediately. Well, lack of time, a chronic lack of time!"
"Quickly! as quickly as possible!" called he to the driver, while entering the carriage.
He had left the house too late, his daughter had broken in on him with her twittering and fondling--but she is a ray of sunlight!
Cara removed Puff from her father's papers, and, putting him on her breast, almost under her chin, as usual, pa.s.sed through the drawing-rooms hurriedly. She was late for her lessons with Miss Mary. In one of the drawing-rooms she pa.s.sed Irene. The slow promenade of the tall and formal young lady, with an open book in her hand, continued yet. Cara, while pa.s.sing, and without stopping, said, with evident gladsomeness:
"But I talked long with father to-day, long."
"You have done that trick!" answered Irene, indifferently.
Cara stopped as if fixed to the floor. In the careless voice of her sister she heard irony; she seemed ready for conflict; her brows contracted suddenly; her eyes were full of sparks. But Irene, absorbed in reading, was already a good number of steps away. After a few seconds, Cara vanished behind the door of her own room and Miss Mary's.
Irene's features, rather meagre and elongated, continued motionless; her paleness increased their formality. But as time pa.s.sed, weariness settled the more deeply on her drooping eyelids. Whenever she pa.s.sed a window of the drawing-rooms, the pin in her hair east quick, sharp gleams in the sunlight.
At last the door of Malvina's room opened and out came Kranitski, quite different from what he had been at his arrival. His shoulders were bent; his head drooping; on his cheeks were red spots; his forehead was greatly wrinkled. He looked as though he had been weeping a moment before. Even his mustaches were hanging in woefulness over his carefully shaven chin. Irene stopped, and with the book in her two hands, which she had dropped, gazed at the man approaching her. He hastened his step, took her hand, and said in a low voice and hurriedly:
"I am the most wretched of beings! I was not worthy of such great happiness as--as--your mother's friends.h.i.+p, so I lose it. Je suis fini, completement et cruellement fini. I take farewell of you, Panna Irene--so many years! so many years! I loved you all so greatly, so heartily. Some people call me a romantic old dreamer.
I am. I suffer. Je souffre horriblement. I wish you every happiness. Perhaps, we may never meet again. Perhaps, I shall go to the country. I take farewell of you. So many, so many years! O Dieu!" His eyelids were red; he was bent more than ever as he pa.s.sed out. On Irene's face great alarm appeared.
"It is true, then. It is true!" whispered she. Springing forward like a bird she pa.s.sed through the drawing-room, quickly and silently. Invisible wings bore her toward the closed door of her mother's room; when entering, her manner was calm and distinguished, as usual, but her eyes, in which there was anxious concern, beheld the form of a woman lying in a deep armchair, her face covered with her hands. Malvina was weeping in silence; her sobs gave out no sound, they merely shook her shoulders at regular intervals. These shoulders were drooping forward, and it seemed as though an unseen weight were crus.h.i.+ng them to the earth and would crush them down through it.
Irene hurried, silently; brought a vial from the adjoining bedchamber, poured some liquid on her palm, and touched her mother's forehead and temples with it, delicately. Malvina raised her face, which was deeply agitated by an expression of dread. At that instant one might have thought the woman feared her daughter. But Irene, in her usual calm voice, said: