The Golden Tulip: A Novel Part 26

"I hope I've said to you what Mama would have chosen to say."

"I'm sure you have."

"Now I think we should blow the candle out and sleep."

It was as if they were children again. Francesca drew the bed curtains after extinguis.h.i.+ng the candle flame and they tucked down under the goose-feather quilt. Aletta's last thoughts before she slept were of the injured young man. She uttered a silent prayer that he would live.

In the morning, when it was time for Francesca to go to the studio, Clara was waiting as usual to play escort, although she knew Aletta was to accompany her sister. Francesca was so used to it that she never thought of there being any change in the situation, but Aletta did.

"There's no need for you to come today, Juffrouw Huys," she said with such iron firmness that Clara stepped back automatically, having caught a resemblance to Geetruyd's tone when no argument was to be brooked.

"But I always do," she protested, recovering herself.

"In my father's instructions to Vrouw Wolff," Aletta countered, having been given all the details by her sister, "he insisted, as I'm sure you were told, that Francesca had no need of extra chaperonage when in the company of a member of her family and that included being with her sister."

"I think it was in the plural-sisters."

"A sister in the singular," Aletta bluffed, not entirely sure on that point. "I'll also walk home with Francesca when she has finished work."

"Won't you be back for the noon meal?"

"Not today. After I've delivered my sister I want to explore Delft." Aletta took Francesca by the arm and set off at a brisk pace before there was any chance of Geetruyd coming to intervene.

"Not this direction, but the other," Francesca said with a laugh, drawing Aletta to a halt and turning her around to leave the crooked, narrow street at the east end.

"I came by way of the west end of Kromstraat yesterday evening."

"So did I when I first arrived, but this is the quickest route."

As they walked along, Francesca pointed out Vrouw Thin's home, which could be seen in the row of gabled houses from the bridge over the ca.n.a.l at Oude Langendijk. In the square Aletta wanted to know how more recently the New Church there was built in comparison with the Old Church, by which she had alighted from the hay wagon.

"Well, the old one dates from the thirteenth century and the new one from the fourteenth. The Vermeers like to wors.h.i.+p at the former, which means I rarely see them on Sundays, because I go to the latter with Geetruyd and Clara."

"Are you never free of those two women?"

"Never for as long as I would wish."

When they reached the Mechelin Huis, Francesca was disappointed when her sister declined to go in with her.

"Not today," Aletta said. "It might not be convenient. In any case, as I said to Clara, I want to get some idea of my whereabouts today and to see the sights of interest."

"If you're sure," Francesca said uncertainly. "I finish here at five o'clock on these darker winter evenings and even for the last half hour I carry out sundry ch.o.r.es in the studio as soon as the light gets bad."

When Francesca had gone into the house, Aletta felt an enormous sense of relief at being quite alone and unknown to anyone, a stranger in a strange town. There was n.o.body to hail her, none to greet or chat with and, best of all, no further need to keep a bland countenance with a heart being torn apart when well-meaning acquaintances asked after her father, wanting to know if he had recovered from his ordeal. She had seen in every pair of eyes that awareness of the judge's condemnation of her as a daughter. They were not to know of the self-punishment to which she had sentenced herself. Giving up painting, with or without Hendrick's permission, was the only way she knew of atoning for all she had done.

It was a damp, dull day with the cobbles everywhere still wet from the day before, but as yet there was no rain. She spent a long time in the New Church, where she viewed the spectacular tomb of Willem the Silent and the memorials to other members of the House of Orange. From there she went to the old palace, once a convent, where Willem the Silent had lived. She had not expected to see in the wall of the staircase the gaping holes where the bullets of his a.s.sa.s.sin had lodged. Having been in close contact with death the previous day, she felt the same chill of horror come upon her and she hastened from the building to cross the bridge of a narrow ca.n.a.l into the Old Church. There she sat in a secluded corner until that renewal of icy shock had subsided again. She thought of many things as she sat there, including what Francesca had told her of Jan Vermeer's work. Perhaps, since he wors.h.i.+pped here, he had been inspired to capture in his paintings the same pure light that flooded the whole church through the great high windows of clear gla.s.s. The effect on pale walls and pillars devoid of ornamentation and the great carved pulpit with extraordinarily beautiful workmans.h.i.+p was breathtaking.

When she left the church she bought a bun at a bakery and ate it on the premises. It was enough to keep her present small appet.i.te satisfied and, well wrapped up in her hooded cloak, she walked along narrow streets and followed ca.n.a.ls as she came to know her way about. But at four o'clock the rain, which had held off all day, finally descended and she ran through the heavy drops to Mechelin Huis. Catharina, who had heard about her unexpected arrival from Francesca, welcomed her in to hot tea and a warm fireside.

Aletta, fearing what she might hear from the hard-faced Geetruyd about the victim of the accident upon her return to Kromstraat, asked Catharina if she had heard any news about the young man.

"I have," Catharina replied. "What happened is the talk of Delft today because the young man in question is the only son of one of the town's wealthiest wool merchants. Only three months ago there was great rejoicing in the de Veere family when Constantijn-that's the young man's name-became betrothed to Isabella van Alewijns, the eldest daughter of a prosperous Gouda merchant in the cheese trade."

"How is he? Do you know?"

"Alive. That's all that can be said. I was told that his father has sent to Amsterdam for the best doctor in the city." Catharina paused. "The news is grave. Both legs had to be amputated and Constantijn is fighting for his life. It is all so sad, because he excelled at sailing and every other kind of sporting activity."

Aletta sat motionless, staring into the fire. "It should never have happened," she said bitterly.

"That can be said about any accident," Catharina said quietly. "For a moment of speed and folly, lives can be shattered."

"Where does Heer de Veere live?"

"Do you mean the father or the son?"

Aletta raised her eyebrows. "Have they separate establishments?"

"I told you they were a rich family. Directly opposite this house, on the other side of the square, is the de Veere office and above it is the apartment that the young man occupies. His parents used to live there before they built a house out in the country, but Constantijn was taken to his own place last night, because it was considered too dangerous to continue transporting him any farther to his parents' home."

They were sitting in the firelight and Aletta rose to go over to the window and look out across the square at the house opposite. Every window there was bright with candle glow from the office to the attic. So he was nearby. She had a sudden superst.i.tious notion that if he died, so would she. Not perhaps in the physical sense, but to lose her true grasp on life and become cantankerous and lonely as Sybylla had long prophesied. She was aware from her recent behavior to being well on the way to that state.

"Your sister has told me of the difficulties you have been having at home and that you hope to find employment in Delft," Catharina said from where she sat.

"Yes, I do." Aletta returned to her chair. "Today I made a mental note of several possibilities. The baker's wife seemed to be shorthanded and I came across a little shop selling embroidered items including caps, which I can say I'm quite expert at making. I should like to start work soon while I still have enough money to take a small room somewhere."

"Won't you stay on with Vrouw Wolff?"

"I couldn't afford to, much as I would like to continue living in the same house as my sister."

"I've a suggestion. I know from all Francesca has told me that you are a clever young woman. I wondered if, as a temporary measure and until you get something more suited to your abilities, you would consider giving me a helping hand with the children. It would give you a breathing s.p.a.ce and you wouldn't have to rush into anything just because you need to get work quickly. I couldn't afford to pay you very much and you'd have to share a room with Ignatius, who is nine months, but you would have some hours of liberty every week and n.o.body goes hungry in this house!"

Aletta was keenly appreciative of the offer, but uncertain. "I understood from Francesca that your husband never wished to have another woman staying in the house."

"That's true, but he is away at the present time and all matters are under my jurisdiction."

"I've had no experience in looking after children."

"But you like them, don't you?"

"Of course I do, but I want to be perfectly honest about everything. I should like to work here, but I seem to have little patience these days if anyone crosses me."

"All the better. My offspring need a firm hand." Catharina lowered her voice confidentially. "I'm almost certain that I must be pregnant again. I'm not sure yet, but I'm queasy at the oddest hours. Elizabeth is a good maidservant, but she has enough to do and for once, just for my husband's sake when he returns, I'd be glad not to have my mother fussing over me."

"When would you like me to start?"

"Tomorrow?"

"I'll move in tomorrow morning when I come with Francesca."

Later that evening Aletta wrote to Sybylla and asked her to send on the chest of belongings that had been left packed in readiness. Francesca kept to herself her doubts about how Sybylla and Maria would manage, but Aletta brought up the subject.

"Maria won't let go of the purse strings, no matter how hard Sybylla might try to get hold of them, and Griet will feel herself in charge, paying only lip service to the other two. I think we sometimes forget how long she has been with us, how much she has learned and what a competent housekeeper she has become. In spite of what Father said to me, I wouldn't have left those at home in the lurch if I'd felt they couldn't manage without me."

When Aletta moved into Mechelin Huis she found that her room, which was on the third floor and at the front of the house, gave her an uninterrupted view of the de Veere house opposite. Even as she looked out, a mud-splashed coach with tired horses drew up outside its entrance, which she guessed had brought one of the doctors from Amsterdam, and this was confirmed when a man in the customary black garb of a doctor hastened into the house. She tried to guess which was Constantijn's bedchamber. Living quarters were most likely to be on the floor above the offices, which meant he would be lying behind the windows that were on a level with hers, the grandest rooms being usually at the front of the house.

All the Vermeer children took to Aletta, although they soon found that she had a will of iron and would have discipline. They respected her for it, for they were then clear as to what the situation was and it was satisfying to have a framework of rules to kick against when they felt rebellious. By their natures they bore out to her, even as she had learned from her own childhood, that parents who showed love for each other bred affectionate children. They were a warmhearted bunch, incredibly naughty at times, but there was also a great deal of laughter in the Vermeer house, which Aletta enjoyed on the surface while inwardly she remained frozen and bereft. She liked Jan Vermeer as much as his wife, for he was most kindly toward her and in return she tried to keep out of his way as much as possible, although she supposed he had no objection to her being in the house since he knew it was a temporary measure.

Catharina was not pregnant after all, but had been afflicted by some curious illness that made her giddy with pain in her head, forcing her to lie down. There were some days when she could not rise from her bed, but then she took a turn for the better and was full of hope that she would be well enough to bake and prepare for St. Nicholaes's Day.

"I've already started the baking," Aletta said to her one morning, "and I've the girls to help me, teaching them at the same time. Even Beatrix has been removing the skins from almonds after they have been given a dip in hot water."

In the end Aletta did everything for the celebrations, including buying the gifts for the children, since Catharina was not yet well enough to do any purchasing herself. Aletta and Francesca also made or bought their own presents for all the family, and they sent a small package home by ca.n.a.lboat, which contained gifts from both of them to everyone there.

"You had better not put my name as a half-donor on those fancy coat b.u.t.tons for Father, or else he'll never use them," Aletta had said.

"I'm doing it anyway," Francesca said, "and when I go home at Christmas I'll sew them on his best coat myself if it's not already been done."

As yet Aletta had been kept so busy in the Vermeer household that she had not found time to look for other employment and in any case Catharina still had need of her. Not once had she been in the studio, but she had lingered many times in front of the paintings in the house, appreciating those by other artists as well as Vermeer's. Totally detached, she viewed these works of art as if she herself had never painted, unable to feel the sense of loss that she was sure was crus.h.i.+ng her inside.

Almost daily there was some word spoken of the patient across the square. His mother was constantly at his bedside. Since he had lost so much blood she refused to allow anyone to bleed him further and two of several doctors had left in a huff. All sorts of potions were being prescribed to help him regain his strength, many with a vile taste, according to hearsay.

"Do you remember the ingredients of the specially nouris.h.i.+ng broth that Mama used to give us when we were ill?" Aletta asked Francesca after hearing of these vain attempts to restore the invalid.

"Yes, I made it often enough after I was put in charge of the house-hold. It needs bone marrow and eggs with everything else, including just enough of the right spices to encourage the most jaded appet.i.te. I believe I can guess what you have in mind."

"I thought you would. If we made the broth and presented it at the de Veere house on St. Nicholaes's Eve, n.o.body could take offense or think our action presumptuous."

"I agree. That's a splendid notion. I'll buy all we'll need."

"And I'll ask Catharina if we may make it in her kitchen. I'm sure you don't want to ask any favors of Geetruyd!"

Catharina was only too willing and insisted that they used her spices, which saved expense. When the day came Francesca had to work in the studio, but she had written out the ingredients to present with the broth in case Vrouw de Veere should wish to make it again for her stricken son.

That evening Jan accompanied Aletta across the square with the jug of broth, having offered to present her, for he knew Constantijn's parents, who had bought paintings from his gallery several times. Francesca had already gone back to Kromstraat with Clara.

"You take it as your gift," she had said to her sister. "After all, you were the one who suggested it in the first place."

The entrance into the de Veere house was next to the one into the office. Jan and Aletta were invited in and on the first floor the two parents, a couple of about her father's age, dignified and gracious, received them in a splendidly appointed room.

"How kind of you," Heer de Veere declared heartily when Aletta had explained the purpose of her visit. Previously she had only seen him from a distance as he went in and out of the building and now, at close quarters, she could see the strain in his face over the tragedy that had befallen his son.

"Your thoughtfulness is more appreciated than you could ever realize," his wife said to her. "Friends and neighbors have been wonderful with their support and to think that you, whom I know to have been in the stage wagon at the time of the accident, should come with your offering for our son's well-being touches me deeply. I have seen you and your sister come and go at the Mechelin Huis during the many hours when I've sat by the window while my son has slept." She dropped her gaze to the recipe for the broth that Aletta had given her with the jug, which had been sent to the kitchen. "I do believe this recipe is very similar to one that my grandmother used to make and that I have been unable to find. I know it to be good."

"How is your son now?"

The woman exchanged a look with her husband as if it were getting harder all the time to answer such queries. "He is still desperately ill and sleeps most of the time." Her voice caught on a tremulous note. "My greatest fear is that when he is stronger he will lose his mind."

Heer de Veere interrupted quickly. "My dear, I've advised you not to consider that terrible possibility."

"But how can I not?" she exclaimed emotionally, both to him and to their visitors. "Constantijn has put up such a fight to live, but once he discovers his legs have been amputated he will suffer the most dreadful mental torment. He was such a sportsman, you see."

Jan nodded compa.s.sionately. "There was none to match him on ice or in a kaatsen team bas.h.i.+ng that hard leather ball."

The woman dabbed her handkerchief to each eye. "But that can never be again."

Both Jan and Aletta saw it was time to take their leave. Vrouw de Veere thanked them again for coming. "I'll go up and give my son some of your broth. It should be heated and ready by now."

Heer de Veere saw the two visitors to the door. He echoed his wife's thanks, but did not suggest that either should come again, which they had not expected in any case. After they had gone he went with slow steps back upstairs. He had been glad of the little diversion of a visit for his wife, for they were both stunned by more bad news to bear, news that had been received only an hour before but that they would have to keep to themselves for a while yet.

Before going to bed that night Aletta stood for a few moments at her window, as she always did, to look across at the one level with her own. Vrouw de Veere had shown such interest in the broth that she was sure it would be made up again and regularly if Constantijn should be like other sick people in appreciating its flavorsome goodness.

"You must live, Constantijn de Veere," she whispered aloud. Then she closed the curtains again and went to look at Ignatius sleeping in his crib. He was a good baby and rarely woke at night. She leaned over to tuck his quilt closer about him, and a little necklace of coral, hanging over the end of the crib, rattled gently. It was an heirloom, such as was owned by most families and always handed down to the newest baby, for coral was known to have healing qualities and could ward off illness. During the day Ignatius wore it under his bodice, but when he was old enough not to s.n.a.t.c.h at it as babies did he would wear it outside his gown until his fifth birthday, when he was breeched, or Catharina had another baby, whichever was the sooner.

If at her home the Visser coral necklace had not been handed down to Sybylla, who had it in a drawer until she should have children, it would still have been in Aletta's possession and she knew she would have taken it across the square and asked for it to be put under Constantijn's pillow, as was sometimes done when an adult was sick. But since she did not have it she must trust to the wisdom of his doctor and the recipe for the broth. Neither detracted in any way from the strength of her prayers for him every Sunday in the Old Church, which she attended with the Vermeers, nor from those she said before she went to sleep at night.

PIETER WAS ON his way to Delft. After St. Nicholaes's Night the year before when he had taken the hyacinth to Francesca's home, he had no intention of not seeing her this year as well. He had chosen to go on horseback, for after much rain a recent cold snap had hardened the roads and the puddles had become glittering ice.

He had seen Francesca only once since he had called at the Vermeers' house during the birthday party. It was during the time when Hendrick was still in prison and Aletta had implored him not to let her sister know of their father's predicament. The arrangements for the meeting had been made through Gerard. Francesca had been waiting for him by the helm-roofed towers of the east gate that August morning. As he had ridden into sight, she had come running across the bridge to meet him, a slender figure in a green gown and a straw hat. She carried sketching materials, which provided the official reason for her being out all day, although she had taken Catharina into her confidence.

He had set her up on his horse and they had ridden out into the countryside where they could be alone. It had been an idyllic day with a picnic he had brought with him, which had included a bottle of wine. He had watched her make sketches of the sparkling ca.n.a.l and the cornfields beyond, distant harvesters to be seen and a red windmill seeming to preside over the whole tranquil scene. He had feasted his eyes on her lovely face composed in concentration on her drawing, the suns.h.i.+ne trapped in her glorious hair and the vulnerable beauty of the nape of her neck just above the white cambric collar.

There had been more tender moments when they had lain side by side, exchanging lovers' whispers in the high gra.s.s that was full of wildflowers and aflutter with b.u.t.terflies, wings as jewel-bright and transparent in the sun as stained gla.s.s. He had kissed her mouth, her face, her throat and the nipples of her pale b.r.e.a.s.t.s, aching to possess her. Once he had buried his face in her lap with such yearning, his arms clasped about her hips, that he had felt her quiver and gasp with desire. But she had raised herself to take his head between her hands and drawn him up to kiss his lips lovingly, her wide-open eyes telling him that the time was not yet, no matter that she might long for it as much as he.

When the hour had come for them to go their separate ways again she had given him a drawing of herself that Jan had done in a matter of minutes at her request. It was of her head and shoulders, an exquisite likeness and quite small. She had preserved it from creasing by placing it in a leather folder of the same size. He tucked it into his jacket next to his heart.

"Please convey my thanks to Master Vermeer," he had said, his arms about her. "When is he going to paint you?"

"Catharina would like him to do so, because when he does have some rare time in which to paint it is not always convenient for her to leave everything to sit for him."

"Well, then?"

"He would never take working hours away from me."

"Then paint a self-portrait."

Her smile teased him, but not her eyes. "Not yet," she had said with the same warmth of promise with which she had restrained his pa.s.sion earlier. Shortly afterward they had begun their regular if intermittent correspondence, his obliging friend, Gerard, always letting him know when a trip to Delft was in the offing. It was an exchange of love letters. Never before had he set down his innermost feelings as he did to her and they had both found that the old adage about absence making the heart grow fonder was true, except that the deepening and enriching of the love they already felt for each other went far beyond mere fondness.

Now, on this winter evening, he rode into Delft at dusk. Sounds of merrymaking and children's laughter came from most of the houses as he rode past along the narrow streets. He planned to stay at the Mechelin tavern. It would be the first time he had stayed overnight in Delft, having left the town before nightfall on both previous occasions, putting up at hostelries on the road home. Now he had become more confident that all the time he remained unknown and unrecognized in Delft he would incur no danger to Francesca.

The tavern was crowded and he had to wait before the landlord's wife at the desk could give him her attention. "I'm sorry, mijnheer," she said in answer to his request for a room, "but this is St. Nicholaes's Night and every room is taken by those coming home for family celebrations. You will find it is the same with every hostelry in the town."

"Can you recommend a private house where I might find accommodation?"

"Again I have to say no on this night. But wait a moment." She leaned back from the desk until she could see her husband and shouted to him, "Has Vrouw Wolff any vacancies left?" When he shook his head she shrugged her shoulders apologetically at Pieter. "That is how it is with every house that normally obliges us with an overflow."

"At least may I leave my horse in your stables?"

"Certainly. They are a short distance away, but you'll find an ostler outside who will take your horse there."