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She looked round her and over her shoulder. The windows near them were closed, Stafford with his cigarette was too far off to overhear them.
"If I were a man, rich and powerful as you are, and I owed another a grudge, I would not rest night or day until I had got him into my power. Whether I meant to exact my revenge or not, I would wait and work, and scheme and plot until I had him at my mercy so that I could say, 'See now you got the better of me once, you played me false once, but it is my turn now.' He should sue for mercy, and I would grant it--or refuse it--as it pleased me; but he should feel that he was in my power; that my hand was finer than his, my strength greater!" He shot a glance at her, and his great rugged face grew lined and stern.
"Where did you get those ideas? Why do you talk to me like this?" he muttered, with surprise and some suspicion.
"I am not a child," she said, languidly. "And I have been living with you for some time now. Sir Stephen Orme is a great man, is surrounded by great and famous people, while you, with all your money, are"--she shrugged her shoulders--"well, just n.o.body."
His face grew dark. She was playing on him as a musician plays on an instrument with which he is completely familiar.
"What the devil do you mean?" he muttered.
"If I were a man, in your place, I would have the great Sir Stephen at my feet, to make or to break as I pleased. I would never rest until I could be able to say: 'You're a great man in the world's eyes, but I am your master; you are my puppet, and you have to dance to my music, whether the tune be a dead march or a jig.' That is what I should do if I were a man; but I am only a girl, and it seems to me nowadays that men have more of the woman in them than we have."
He stopped and stared at her in the moonlight, a dark frown on his face, his eyes heavy with doubt and suspicion.
"Look here, my girl," he said, "you are showing up in a new light to-night. You are talking as your mother used to talk. And you aren't doing it without a purpose. What is it? What grudge can you, a mere girl who has only known him for a couple of days, have against Sir Stephen?"
She smiled.
"Let us say that I am only concerned for my father's wounded pride and honour," she said. "Or let us say that I _have_ a game of my own to play, and that I am asking you to help me while you gratify your own desire for revenge. Will you help me?"
"Tell me--tell me what your game is. Good Lord!"--with a scowl. "Fancy you having a game: it's--it's ridiculous!"
"Almost as ridiculous as calling me a girl and expecting to see me playing with a doll or a hoop," she returned, calmly. "But you needn't reply. I can see you mean to do it, like a good and indulgent father; and some day, perhaps soon, I will, like a good and dutiful daughter, tell you why I wanted you to do it. Is that you, Mr. Orme? Will I come and sing? Oh, yes, if you wish it. Where is the little dog?" she asked, looking up at him with a new expression in her languorous eyes, as she glided beside him.
"Asleep on my bed," replied Stafford, with a laugh. "My man has turned him off and made him a luxurious couch with cus.h.i.+ons three or four times, but he would persist on getting on again, so he'll have to stay, I suppose?"
"Are you always so good-natured?" she asked, in a low voice. "Or do you reserve all your tenderness of heart for dogs and horses--as Mr. Howard declares?"
"Mr. Howard is too often an a.s.s," remarked Stafford, with a smile.
"You shall choose your song, as a reward for your exertions this afternoon," she said, as he led her to the piano.
Most of the men in the crowd waiting eagerly for the exquisite voice would have been moved to the heart's core by her tone and the expression in her usually cold eyes, but Stafford was clothed in the armour of his great love, and only inclined his head.
"Thanks: anything you like," he said, with the proper amount of grat.i.tude.
She shot a glance at him and sank into the music-seat languidly. But a moment afterwards, as if she could not help herself, she was singing a Tuscan love-song with a subdued pa.s.sion which thrilled even the _blase_ audience cl.u.s.tered round her. It thrilled Stafford; but only with the desire to be near Ida. A desire that became irresistible; and when she had finished he left the room, caught up his hat and overcoat and went out of the house.
As he did so, Mr. Falconer walked past him into the smoking-room. Mr.
Griffenberg was alone there, seated in a big arm-chair with a cigar as black as a hat and as long as a penholder.
Falconer wheeled a chair up to him, and, in his blunt fas.h.i.+on, said:
"You are in this railway scheme of Orme's, Griffenberg?" Mr.
Griffenberg nodded.
"And you?"
"Yes," said Falconer, succinctly. "I am joining. I suppose it's all right; Orme will be able to carry it through?"
Griffenberg emitted a thick cloud of smoke.
"It will try him a bit. It's a question of capital--ready capital. I'm helping him: got his Oriental shares as cover. A bit awkward for me, for I'm rather pushed just now--that estate loan, you know."
Falconer nodded. "I know. See here: I'll take those shares from you, if you like, and if you'll say nothing about it."
Mr. Griffenberg eyed his companion's rugged face keenly.
"What for?" he asked.
Mr. Falconer smiled.
"That's my business," he said. "The only thing that matters to you is, that by taking the shares off your hands I shall be doing you a service."
"That's true: you shall have 'em," said Mr. Griffenberg; "but I warn you it's a heavy lot."
"You shall have a cheque to-morrow," said Mr. Falconer. "Where did you get that cigar: it takes my fancy?"
Mr. Griffenberg produced his cigar case with alacrity: he liked Mr.
Falconer's way of doing business.
At the moment Stafford left the Villa, Ida was standing by the window in the drawing-room of Heron Hall. On the table beside her lay a book which she had thrown down with a gesture of impatience. She was too restless to read, or to work; and the intense quietude of the great house weighed upon her with the weight of a tomb.
All day, since she had left Stafford, his words of pa.s.sionate love had haunted her. They sang in her ears even as she spoke to her father or Jessie, or the dogs who followed her about with wistful eyes as if they were asking her what ailed her, and as if they would help her.
He loved her! She had said it to herself a thousand times all through the long afternoon, the dragging evening. He loved her. It was so strange, so incredible. They had only met three or four times; they had said so little to each other. Why, she could remember almost every word. He loved her, had knelt to her, he had told her so in pa.s.sionate words, with looks which made her heart tremble, her breath come fast as she recalled them. That is, he wanted her to be his wife, to _give herself_ to him, to be with him always, never to leave him.
The strangeness, the suddenness of the thing overwhelmed her so that she could not think of it calmly. He had asked her to think of it, to decide, to give him an answer. Why could she not? She had always, hitherto, known her own mind. If anyone had asked her a question about the estate, about the farm, she had known what to answer, important as the question might have been. But now she seemed as if her mind were paralyzed, as if she could not decide. Was it because she had never thought of love; because she had never dreamt that anyone would love her so much as to want to have her by his side for all his life?
As she looked through the window at the moonlight on the lawn, she thought of him; called up the vision of his tall, graceful figure and handsome face--yes; he was handsome, she knew. But she had scarcely given a thought to his face; and only felt that it was good to have him near her, to hear him talk in his deep voice, broken sometimes by the short laugh which sounded almost boyish. It had been good to have him near her--But then, she had been so lonely, had seen so few men--scarcely any at all--Suppose when she met him next she said "No,"
told him that she could not love him, and he went away, leaving her forever; would she be sorry?
She turned away from the window suddenly, nearly stumbling over Donald, who was lying at her feet, his nose on his paws, his great eyes fixed sadly and speculatively on her face, and caught up the book. But _his_ face came between her and the page, and she put the book down and went into the hall.
Her father was in the library, there was no sound in the house to drown the voice, the pa.s.sionately pleading voice which rang in her ears.
"I must go out," she said, "I shall be able to think in the air, shall be able to decide."
She caught up a shawl and flung it carelessly over her head, quite unconscious that the fleecy, rose-coloured wool made an exquisite frame for the girlish loveliness of her face, and opening the door, went slowly down the broken, lichen-covered steps, the two dogs following at her heels.
She drew in the keen but balmy air with a long breath, and looked up at the moon, now a yellow crescent in the starry sky; and something in the beauty of the night, something subtly novel thrilled her with a strange sense of throbbing, pulsing joy and happiness, underneath which lurked as subtle a fear and dread, the fear and dread of those who stand upon the threshold of the unknown; who, in pa.s.sing that threshold, enter a world of strange things which they never more may leave.
Love: what was it? Did she feel it? Oh, if she could only tell! What should she say to him when she met him; and when should she meet him?
Perhaps he had come to regret his avowal to her, had been wearied and disappointed by her coldness, and would not come again! At the thought her heart contracted as if at the touch of an icy hand. But the next moment it leapt with a suffocating sense of mystery, of half-fearful joy, for she saw him coming across the lawn to her, and heard her name, spoken as it had never yet been spoken excepting by him; and she stood, still as a statue, as he held out his hand and, looking into her eyes, murmured her name again.
"Ida!"