Drowned Hopes Part 17

Tiny swiveled slowly around to face Dortmunder. "Thirty thousand is what Stan Murch would cost me," he said. "Right?"

"About that," Dortmunder agreed.

"I'll keep that in mind," Tiny said, and swiveled front.

The motor home rocked and swayed through the second-growth forest, Kelp listening to bushes, Tiny and Dortmunder squinting hard as they stared through the winds.h.i.+eld, Tom sitting back in the dark by himself, thinking his own thoughts.

Dortmunder said, "What's that?"

"What's what?" Kelp asked.

"Just stop," Tiny told him.

"If you say so," Kelp agreed nonchalantly, and stopped with the nose of the motor home half an inch from another metal-pipe barrier.

Tiny said, "Okay? Do you see it now?"

Kelp peered out the winds.h.i.+eld, gazing too high and too far away. "See what?"

"He can only hear it," Dortmunder suggested.

Tiny shook his head in disgust and got up out of the swivel chair to look for the metal cutter. Kelp leaned his head out the open window beside him, looked around, and at last saw the barbed-wire-topped chain-link fence sketched into the face of the forest, picking up scattered muted highlights from the moon, extending away into nothingness to left and right. "Well, look at that," he said.

"We already did," Dortmunder told him.

Tiny got out and dispatched this barrier the same way as the first, and the motor home steered slowly, majestically, with all the dignity of a great pa.s.senger liner, through the opening in the fence and onto Vilburgtown Reservoir property. Then it stopped and Tiny climbed aboard again, saying, "I could see a bit of it out there. Ahead of us."

"A bit of what?" Kelp asked him.

"The reservoir."

"Don't drive into it," Dortmunder suggested.

"He won't," Tiny said. "He'll hear the splash."

Ahead, through the trees, as Kelp continued to ease them slowly-forward, tiny winks of gold and saffron showed where moonlight reflected from the restless water of the reservoir. About fifteen feet from the water's edge they came to a dirt clearing, and Kelp stopped. "There you are," he said. "Through doubt and scorn, I made my way."

Tiny said, "You couldn't of done it without the bushes."

They all emerged from the motor home and went down to the water's edge to look out across the quietly rippling surface. It looked deep. It didn't look man-made at all. In the orangey light of the swollen moon just above the mountain-tops, the Vilburgtown Reservoir looked ancient, bottomless, black, menacing. Things must live down in there; long silent things with large eyes and sharp teeth and long bony white arms. "Hmmm," Dortmunder said.

"Well, uh," Kelp said. "We're here. I guess we should get on with it."

"No time like the present," Tom said.

"Right," Dortmunder said.

Dragging their feet a little, Dortmunder and Kelp led the way back to the motor home and off-loaded all their gear: wet suits, air tanks, underwater flashlights, the whole schmear. As they started to strip off their street clothes in the chilly night air, Tiny frowned away to the left, saying, "Dam's down there somewhere, isn't it?"

Tom, pointing, said, "You can make out the curve of it right there. See?"

Tiny said, "n.o.body inside there can look down this way?"

"Naw." Tom waved both bony hands, dismissing that problem. "The windows all face down the valley. Don't worry, Tiny, we're all alone here."

Nearby, Dortmunder and Kelp, changing into their wet suits, heard that remark and looked at each other. But they didn't say a word.

"Hey, it's the husband!"

"Welcome back, honeymooner! Hey, you got some bags under your eyes!"

"You gotta take time out to sleep, boy! It'll still be there when you wake up! Is he thinner?"

"Thinner? He's wasted away to nothin! He's got no lead in his pencil!"

"He barely got a pencil anymore!"

"Siddown, Bobby, siddown, you got to start building up your strength!"

"Yeah, yeah," Bob said, nodding at his tormentors, keeping his bitter thoughts to himself. He'd known all along that when he finally came back to work here at the dam he'd be sure to take some ribbing, and the thing to do was just play along and wait for these jerks to get bored with themselves.

But it wasn't easy, under the circ.u.mstances, to keep his mouth shut. The fact is, he'd screwed Tiffany a h.e.l.l of a lot more before the wedding than during the so-called honeymoon. The first couple days of married life, Tiffany'd been in a really s.h.i.+tty mood, just mad at everything, at the airplane ride, the hotel, the whole island of Aruba. Bob had been pretty patient and reasonable, all things considered, and at last on the third day she'd relaxed and her disposition improved, and they'd had several kind of nice hours together before the onset of morning sickness, a thing Tiffany was apparently going to be experiencing all day long for the next five months. (The worst so far, the absolute worst for everybody concerned, everybody in the vicinity, had been the plane ride back.) So all this hooting and hollering was pretty well aimed at the wrong guy. But there was no point saying so, or saying anything at all to these clowns, come to that. His three coworkers on the night s.h.i.+ft at Vilburgtown Dam were not famous for empathy or thoughtfulness. (Well, to be honest, neither was Bob.) So while they made increasingly crude remarks, in their desperate pseudo-friendly determination to get a rise out of him, Bob went glumly to his work station and settled back into the routine of things. There were forms to be filled out, computer input to be caught up on, safety checks and maintenance checks that hadn't been dealt with while he was gone, consumption reports for the New York City water people, pension and insurance and overtime and union and tax doc.u.ments on the four-man detachment of New York Police Department cops a.s.signed to the dam, electric and phone bills...

And they just wouldn't let up; they just had to keep making their brilliant remarks, even though he was trying to get some work done. These three bozos, janitor clerks like himself, handmaidens of the dam, with no Civil Service seniority, had drawn this utterly boring and unchanging night s.h.i.+ft as their introduction to the world of grown-up work, would be here for years until youths even more callow than themselves were hired by the city and stuffed into this dam like worms into a hydroponic tank, so that Bob and his pals could at last move up to a life of daytime inactivity, to spend their days watching cloud formations and guarding the reservoir against fishermen, boaters, skinny dippers, malfunctions, and madmen carrying enough LSD to drive the entire Eastern Seaboard mad.

Day duty: when sometimes the phone did ring, when sometimes a pa.s.sing motorist wanted to stop and chat about engineering marvels, when sometimes something happened. But until that happy day, the four of them were stuck together in here in utter tedium, and so any event at all, including (perhaps especially including) a coworker's return from his honeymoon, was something to be savored, to be dwelt on, to be consumed slowly and completely, to be driven right flat into the f.u.c.king ground.

"I'll be back," Bob finally announced, knowing he could stand no more of it for a while. Getting to his feet, he turned away from his data sheets and computer terminal and best friends, and muttered, "I need some air."

"What you need is oysters!"

"By now, what he needs is a splint! A little short splint about, what, Bobby, about four inches long?"

"That Tiffany's a lucky girl, you know. Bobby can do his dirty deed on her with that little wiener, and she won't know a thing about it, can go right on sleeping."

Jesus. Bob went out the door and up the concrete steps and out onto the catwalk on the reservoir side of the dam, just below the lip of the roadway. Beautiful out here; since Aruba, Bob had become something of a student of beauty, and he could tell that this scene, this northern spring scene here, with its outlined pine trees and big orange moon and scraggle-toothed mountains and the peaceful water, was beauty.

And he was all alone with it. Down there to his left, where the roadway atop the dam met the land on the far side, was the only structure in sight, a low square one-room building made of local stone, which housed the office of the police detachment, and which was empty right now. There were no cops on duty at night, though they were on call in their homes nearby in case of trouble, and the state police were also close by and available in case of real trouble.

But if you ignored that little stone building and turned your back on the dam to look straight out across the water, it was almost the way it would have been back in Indian times, before the Europeans ever came up the Hudson River and started their settlements. Squinting, you could almost imagine silent Indians out there in their canoes, skimming across the water. Of course, this particular body of water hadn't actually been here back in Indian times, that imaginary canoe of Bob's would have been fifty or sixty feet up in the air among the treetops back then, but the idea of it was right.

And he alone here, the only observer. That faint splash from some distance off to the right, for instance. If he wanted to pretend that was an Indian paddle, what was wrong with that? Even if he really knew it was just some fish.

While Kelp splashed his fingers in the water to see how cold it was-and winced-Dortmunder fitted his goggles on and inhaled through his nose, the way Doug Berry had showed him, to create the seal that would make the goggles water-tight. Then he put the mouthpiece in his mouth and started breathing the air out of the tank, and once again he got that claustrophobic feeling. When his head was enclosed in face mask and mouthpiece, for some reason it always reminded him of prison.

"You ready?" Kelp asked, which of course meant he himself wasn't ready, because if he could talk his mouthpiece wasn't in. For answer, Dortmunder went plodding toward the water.

Because they weren't diving in but walking in, and because they didn't intend to do any swimming while they were in there, just walking, they didn't wear the normal flippers, but had chosen low zippered boots instead. This made their entry into the water a bit more dignified than the usual flapping flipper-wearer. A bit more dignified, but not much.

Or, that is, it would have been dignified if the water hadn't been so cold, causing first Dortmunder and then Kelp to jump right back out the instant they stepped in. Then, looking wide-eyed at each other through the masks, clutching their flashlights, each with his small folding shovel hooked to his weight belt, and with the end of the long white rope lashed loosely around Dortmunder's middle, they both tried again.

Cold. Wading in was the worst possible way to do this. Each inch of the body was given its own opportunity to start freezing, separately, serially. When Dortmunder was about thigh deep, he knew he could stand no more of this death-by-a-thousand-freezes, so he simply sat down in the water, which flooded the wet suit right up to his neck. My heart's gonna stop! he thought, but then the wet suit began to do its job, warming the water next to his skin the way it had done every time in the swimming pool out on Long Island, and his s.h.i.+vering lessened, and the severe ache in his teeth abated, and the hair reattached itself to his scalp.

Next to him, Kelp, seeing what he'd done, had echoed it, and was no doubt going through the same tortures. I am extremely uncomfortable, Dortmunder told himself, but I'm gonna live. There was a kind of gloomy satisfaction in the thought.

Well, it was time to move on. With some difficulty, Dortmunder got his feet under himself once more, but he didn't stand up all the way. He remained crouched to keep his body underwater, and looked back at the sh.o.r.e, where Tiny and Tom were visible against the lighter ma.s.s of the motor home-Tiny leaning on the winch on its tripod, Tom just standing there to one side, like the evil spirit of the lake.

Tiny can handle him, Dortmunder told himself. Tiny can take care of himself. Sure he can. Tiny's a big guy, he's alert, he'll keep control of the situation. Telling himself this stuff, Dortmunder turned away and started duck-walking deeper into the lake.

The ground underfoot underwater was very muddy and very kind of squidgy. As Dortmunder moved deeper, the bottom began to tug at his boots, trying to pull them off, so he had to move more and more carefully, drawing his heel out of the muck every time, while invisible fingers down there clutched at the back of his boot.

Then cold water touched his bare chin, beneath the mouthpiece. I'm gonna go underwater! Now! I'm gonna go underwater now! He turned and stared wildly sh.o.r.eward one last time, but he was too far out over the water now and could no longer make out anything clearly. Tiny and Tom and the motor home were all in the darkness under the trees.

Everything's fine. I'm gonna go underwater now. And he did.

Flashlight. How the h.e.l.l do you turn on the flashlight? There's gotta be a b.u.t.ton, there's- A faint glow off to his right: Kelp's flashlight. So it's possible, no reason to panic, just look down in the darkness and try to figure out where the flashlight b.u.t.ton is. Concentrating on the problem at hand, he forgot to breathe through his mouth, tried to breathe through his nose, and his nostrils pinched shut as the edges of the mask pressed painfully against his cheeks and forehead.

I'm strangling! Terrified, he gulped air through his mouth, discovered he was breathing, found the flashlight b.u.t.ton, clicked the d.a.m.n thing, and he still couldn't see much of anything.

This was very dirty water. A lot dirtier than the stuff that comes out of faucets down in New York City. This water was brown. It had millions of tiny hairy dirt atoms floating in it, bouncing the flashlight glow back in a sepia halo.

He couldn't even see the bottom. He angled the flashlight straight down, and he could just make out his own knees, but no deeper. His boot-clad feet were lost in the brown murk. Behind him, the thick white rope angled upward, buoyant enough to hover just a few inches below the surface, its braided white line disappearing no more than two feet away.

The original idea was, if they just kept moving forward, they'd come to the old road that used to go from Dudson Park to Putkin's Corners; downhill to the right would be the direction they wanted. According to Wally Knurr's computer, the old blacktop should still be there, though it might be partly covered with drifting mud. Of course, if they couldn't see the bottom at all, that was gonna make it a little tougher to find the road. Except that blacktop, even underwater blacktop, wouldn't try to pull his boot off at every step, so that would be a clue.

So the thing to do was stick together and move forward. Stick together. Dortmunder looked around, and couldn't see Kelp's flashlight anymore. Was it because of the glow of his own light? Finding the d.a.m.n b.u.t.ton again-why do they make it so hard to find the b.u.t.ton? - he switched off his light, then turned in a slow circle, staring through the goggles at nothing at all. Pitch-black darkness. No light. Darkness. Blackness. Cold wet blackness, pressing in, pressing down, pressing against his chest and his forehead and the flimsy gla.s.s between his eyes and- b.u.t.ton!

The hazy tan glow came back, re-creating the narrow round tube of dim light in which he stood, this murky closet surrounded by all that black.

Where was Kelp? Jeez, he could get lost down here. I hope he doesn't panic, Dortmunder told himself, afraid that Kelp might not have his own nerves of steel, and knowing for certain that Kelp didn't have the long white braid of rope that, no matter what else might happen, still linked Dortmunder's waist to the winch and Tiny and the sh.o.r.e and the whole upper world of air and light.

Move forward, that was the thing to do. Move forward. Keep the flashlight on as a guide to Kelp, keep tight hold of the rope, that absolute lifeline, and move forward, feeling one's way, waiting for that G.o.dd.a.m.n road.

Why am I doing this?

His foot hit something, hard. The something was hard, and his foot hit it hard. d.a.m.n! Now what?

Dortmunder bent low, sticking the flashlight down into the murk, and saw a tree stump there, right in front of him. Most of its bark had rotted away, the interior was rusty-looking and crumbly, and some of its roots had been exposed by the s.h.i.+fting mud. Roots as bent and dark as witches' fingers, they were all around his feet.

Dortmunder moved to his right, and b.u.mped into something else. It was another stump, about a foot high, a little thicker than the first one. He remained bent over to swing the flashlight in an arc, and more and more of them appeared out of the darkness; a squat army of tree stumps, some thick, some thin, all frayed and crumbling, standing at grubby attention in uneven rows, none more than a foot high. He moved the flashlight in a wider arc, half turning, and they were behind him, too, thousands of them, crowded together, roots overlapping as though they lolled at their ease here, just waiting for him, waiting all these years, biding their time, in no hurry, knowing some black night Dortmunder would descend among them and...

All right, all right. They aren't alive, okay? They're tree stumps, that's all. Get hold of yourself, G.o.ddammit.

Then he remembered one of the items factored into Wally Knurr's computer model of the valley when it was flooded. Most of the trees had been cut down before the water was put in. Yes, and most of the buildings had been towed away, except for totally useless ones or some overly large stone or brick ones like a couple of churches and firehouses and the library Tom had buried his G.o.dd.a.m.n stash behind. And those had been stripped of doors and windows and floors and anything else that might be of use.

He hadn't thought before about what all that meant. He hadn't stopped to think how difficult it was going to be to walk downhill through a forest of short tree stumps. On the other hand, even if he'd thought about tree stumps, he still wouldn't have known about the murky darkness, the complete inability to see anything more than a few feet in front of a flashlight. And he hadn't known just how difficult this mud was going to be to move around in.

Bent over, the rope and the weight belt digging into his waist, Dortmunder tried to find a path through the tree stumps. Shuffling forward, b.u.mping into roots and stones-now there's rocks in here, too-having to turn this way and that to make any progress at all, he soon realized he'd lost all idea which way was forward.

Well, forward is downhill, right? But which way was downhill? With just this narrow tiny area of light for reference, with all the crud floating around in the water, it was impossible to tell which was uphill, which was downhill, which was cross.h.i.+ll.

Which way is forward? More importantly, which way is back? He aimed the flashlight at the floating rope trailing him, but it weaved and drifted with tiny currents, forming half loops, coming from everywhere and nowhere.

Still gazing upward, trying to peer farther back along the line of rope, Dortmunder moved, b.u.mped into something else, lost his balance briefly, compensated fast, and stepped out of his right boot.

Oh, h.e.l.l! His bare foot was down now in cold wet slimy mud, sinking into it. He tugged upward, and felt a thick root pressed across the top of his instep. Clutching at him!

Bending quickly down, swinging the flashlight around fast to see what was going on with his foot, Dortmunder inadvertently slammed the light into yet another stump. It bounced from his hand. It went out.

Darkness. Blackness. Don't panic. The flashlight's down there somewhere, in the dark. The boot's down there somewhere, in the dark. The foot's down there somewhere, in the dark, caught by roots. Don't panic!

How long have I been down here? I've only got an hour of air! Have I been down here an hour? Does this air taste funny?

Don't panic? Don't panic? Why the h.e.l.l not?

Leaning on the rail of the catwalk, gazing out over the still silent beauty of the reservoir in the increasingly pale bright light of the rising moon, Bob found himself reflecting on the changes that had come so recently into his life, and for the first time he wished he actually had a friend. Not the so-called friends he'd had all his life, in grade school and high school, not those gape-jawed a.s.sholes so like the three clowns down in the dam, but a friend, a real friend, someone he could talk to about his innermost thoughts.

For instance. He couldn't possibly talk to the jerks in the dam about waking up with a woman; they didn't have the maturity for the subject. And the fact is, although Bob had what he considered plenty of experience in going to bed with women, the whole phenomenon of then waking up with one, waking up in the morning with another person right there, a woman, an entire life-size woman, first thing in the morning, an entire experience to deal with the second you open your eyes, was something he'd thought insufficiently about before it started to happen.

And what was it like? That was the weird thing; it wasn't particularly pleasant. It sure wasn't s.e.xy. It was like having some kind of big animal in the room with you, a deer or a sheep, maybe a goat, sometimes more like a horse. There it was, coughing and blowing its nose and scratching itself, moving around the room, opening and closing drawers, looking as pale and bloodless as a vampire victim without its makeup on. It was like- Sea monster! Bob stared, thrilled and terrified, as the thing broke the surface way out there across the reservoir, a huge saurian head with long laid-back ears, its reptile eye reflecting white from the moon. It was scaly, almost metallic; a definite sea monster, no question.

The thing moved toward sh.o.r.e. Bob panted, staring at it, almost fainting. Here! Here in the Vilburgtown Reservoir! Like Loch Ness! Like, like, like Stephen King! Right here in front of his eyes!

Near sh.o.r.e, the sea monster-lake monster? reservoir monster? - dove again and disappeared, a widening circular ripple left in its wake. Bob stared and stared, but it never came back. And here, he thought, his awe tinged with bitterness, here's something else I'll never be able to tell anybody. Not even Tiffany.

Maybe especially not Tiffany.

Hmmm.

Kelp surfaced again, closer to sh.o.r.e, and saw Tiny and Tom watching him from up the bank with the interest of uninvolved spectators. Boy, he thought. Get to know who your friends are.

What a bad few minutes that had been, back down there in the lake. He'd lost contact with John, he was stuck in mud down in among all those tree stumps, and he'd lost every bit of his sense of direction. He didn't even have the rope linking him to sh.o.r.e; John had that. If he hadn't remembered the BCD, he might of got really worried down there.

As it happened, though, just as he was considering he might start to get really nervous, he remembered that the B in BCD stood for "buoyancy," and he even remembered how to operate the son of a gun; you press the b.u.t.ton on the side of the control box. Not the one on top.

And what a glorious feeling that was, to rise up and up, out of the muck and mire, up through the crud-filled water, floating upward like a bird, like a balloon, like Superman, then bursting through the skin of water into the air above, to find the moon higher, brighter, whiter, the great water-filled dark bowl of the valley holding him in its comforting dark-green cupped hands, and himself floating safe and serene in the middle of it all, master of his fate!

Over there was the sh.o.r.e. And over there on the sh.o.r.e was the light blur of the Dodge motor home. Kelp was not really a smooth swimmer, not one of your Olympic types, knifing gracefully through the water. What he tended to do was dangle his arms and legs down in the water, agitate them in busy random motion, and gradually move forward. Now, he tried heading for sh.o.r.e via this usual method, but the BCD had him so buoyant that he just bobbed up and down in the water like an abandoned beer can.

Finally, he let some air out of the BCD, enough to drift down just a bit below the surface, and then his usual method regained its usual level of inefficiency. He progressed that way awhile, until one dangling foot hit ground, and after that he walked the rest of the way, emerging from the reservoir like the latest salesman on the staff, the one who'd been given the worst route.

Ridding himself of mouthpiece and goggles, Kelp waded ash.o.r.e as Tiny came down to meet him, saying, "What's the story?"

"It's no good," Kelp told him. He moved toward the motor home, meaning to rid himself of all this gear. "Can't see anything. And there's tree stumps all over the place. You just can't move down there."

Tom joined them on their move toward the motor home, looking concerned, saying, "You can't get to my money?"

"I don't see how," Kelp told him. "John and me, we-" He stopped and stared around the clearing. "Where is John?"