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"We're quite new people, while the Perigals are a county family. But, somehow, I don't think he'll make Vic happy."
"What makes you say that?"
"He's not happy himself. Everything he takes up he wearies of; he gets pleasure out of nothing. And the pity of it is, he's no fool; if anything, he's too many brains."
"How can anyone have too many?"
"Take Perigal's case. He's too a.n.a.lytical; he sees too clearly into things. It's a sort of Rontgen ray intelligence, which I wouldn't have for worlds. Isn't it old Solomon who says, 'In much wisdom there is much sorrow'?"
"Solomon says a good many things," said Mavis gravely, as she remembered how the recollection of certain pa.s.sion-charged verses from the "Song" had caused her to linger by the ca.n.a.l at Melkbridge on a certain memorable evening of her life, with, as it proved, disastrous consequences to herself.
"Have you ever read the 'Song'?" asked Harold.
"Yes."
"I love it, but I daren't read it now."
"Why?"
"More than most things, it brings home to me my--my helplessness."
The poison, begotten of hatred, made Mavis thankful that the Devitt family had not had it all their own way in life.
When she next looked at Harold, he was intently regarding her. Mavis's glance dropped.
"But now there's something more than reading the 'Song' that makes me curse my luck," he remarked.
"And that?"
"Can't you guess?" he asked earnestly.
Mavis did not try; she was already aware of the fascination she possessed for the invalid.
For the rest of the time they were together, Mavis could get nothing out of Harold; he was depressed and absent-minded when spoken to.
Mavis, of set purpose, did her utmost to take Harold out of himself.
"Thank you," he said, as she was going.
"What for?"
"Wasting your time on me and helping me to forget."
"Forget what?"
"Never mind," he said, as he wheeled himself away.
When Mavis got back to Mrs Budd's, she found a bustle of preparation afoot. Mrs Budd was running up and downstairs, carrying clean linen with all her wonted energy; whilst Hannah, her sour-faced a.s.sistant, perspired about the house with dustpan and brushes.
"Expecting a new lodger?" asked Mavis.
"It's my daughter, Mrs Perkins; she's telegraphed to say she's coming down from Kensington for a few days."
"She'll be a help."
Mrs Budd's face fell as she said:
"Well, miss, she comes from Kensington, and she has a baby."
"Is she bringing that too?"
"And her nurse," declared Mrs Budd, not without a touch of pride.
When Mrs Perkins arrived, she was wearing a picture hat, decorated with white ostrich feathers, a soiled fawn dust-coat, and high-heeled patent leather shoes. She brought with her innumerable flimsy parcels (causing, by comparison, a collapsible j.a.panese basket to look substantially built), and a gaily-dressed baby carried by a London s.l.u.t, whose face had been polished with soap and water for the occasion.
After the dust-cloak had settled with the driver, it advanced self-consciously to the steps leading to the front door, the while it called to the London s.l.u.t:
"Come along, nurse, and be careful of baby."
Mavis, who saw and heard this from the window of her sitting-room, noticed that Mrs Perkins greeted her mother, who was waiting at the door, with some condescension. When the last flimsy parcel had been taken within, Mrs Budd brought in Mrs Perkins and the baby to introduce them to Mavis. Mrs Perkins sat down and a.s.sumed a manner of superfine gentility, while she talked with a c.o.c.kney accent. Her mother remained standing. The dust-cloak lived in Kensington, it informed Mavis, "which was so convenient for the West End: it was only an hour's 'bus ride from town."
"Less than that," said Mavis to the dust-cloak.
"I have known it to take fifty-five minutes when it hasn't been stopped by funerals," declared Mrs Perkins.
Mavis looked at the dust-cloak in surprise.
"I always thought it took a quarter of an hour at the outside,"
remarked Mavis.
"For my part, when I go to London, I'm afraid of the 'buses," said Mrs Budd. "I always take the train to Willesden Junction. Florrie's house is only five minutes from there."
Mrs Perkins frowned, coughed, and then violently changed the subject.
Mavis gave no heed to what she was saying. Her eyes were fixed on the baby, which Mrs Budd had put in her arms.
Pa.s.sionate regrets filled her mind, while a dull pain a.s.sailed her heart. She held the baby with a tense grip as Mrs Perkins talked at her, the while the mother kept one eye self-consciously upon her offspring.
Baby that and baby this, she was saying, as Mavis continued to stare with dry-eyed grief at the baby's pasty face. Then blind rage possessed her.
"Why should this common brat, which, even at this early age, carried his origin in his features, live, while my sweet boy is beneath the ground in Pennington Churchyard?" she asked herself.
It was cruel, unjust. Mavis's rage was such that she was within measurable distance of das.h.i.+ng the baby to the ground. Perhaps the dust-cloak's maternal sensibilities scented danger, for, rather abruptly, it got up to go, giving as an excuse that it must rest in order to fulfil social engagements in Swanage. When Mrs Budd, her daughter and grandson, had gone, Mavis still sat in her chair. Her hands grasped its arms; her eyes stared before her. If, at any time, Harold's personality had caused her hatred of his family to wane, the sight of Mrs Perkins's baby was sufficient to restore its vigour.
Then it occurred to Mavis how her love for Perigal, which she had thought to be as stable as the universe, had unconsciously withered within her. It was as if there had been an immense reaction from her one-time implicit faith in her lover, making her despise, where once she had had unbounded confidence. This awakening to the declension that had taken place in her love gave her many anxious hours.
For some days Mavis saw nothing of Harold. She walked on the sweep of sea front and in the streets of the little town in the hope of meeting him, but in vain. She wondered if he had gone home, but persuaded herself that he would not have left Swanage without letting her know.
Mavis was not a little irked at Harold's indifference to her friends.h.i.+p; it hurt her self-esteem, which had been enhanced by the influence she had so palpably wielded over him. It also angered her to think that, after all, she would not be able to drink the draught of revenge which she had promised herself at the Devitts' expense.
All this time she had given no further thought to Windebank's letter; it remained unanswered. As the days pa.s.sed, and she saw nothing of Harold, she began to think considerably of the man who had written to offer her marriage. These thoughts were largely coloured with resentment at the fact of Windebank's not having followed up his unanswered letter by either another communication or a personal appeal.