A Hero's Daughter Part 5

"They asked about the duty of internationalist soldiers and about the brotherhood of arms. And one rascal at a desk in the back row stood up and said: 'Please tell me, Comrade Staff-Sergeant, how many mujahideen did you kill yourself?' Well, there you are... The artificial limbs they make for us are just G.o.d-awful. When you walk down the street you have to grit your teeth. And when you take them off your boots are full of blood. It's as hard as... Well, Ivan Dmitrevich, have a good holiday. Happy Victory Day! Here, look at these flowers. Take them, Dmitrevich. You're a Hero, you deserve them. Give them to your wife... What...? But when...? Good G.o.d! That's terrible! I knew nothing about it. I've only been out of the hospital for five days. Well, keep your chin up, Ivan Dmitrevich. And... Happy Victory Day!"

A year later Ivan retired. The head of the motor pool heaved a sigh of relief. They bid him a solemn farewell; they presented him with a heavy gray marble writing set and an electronic watch. The watch Ivan sold almost immediately: vodka had gone up and his pension was barely adequate. No one wanted the writing set, not even for three rubles.

That year Gorbachev came to power. Ivan watched his speeches on television. It was the month of May the time for his abstinence. This animated and garrulous man, Gorbachev, created a strange impression when he spoke, forever removing his gla.s.ses, putting them on again and cracking jokes: "We must develop the system of vegetable plots," he would say, waving his hands like a conjuror seeking to hypnotize his audience. "You know, little gardens, little vegetable plots. Several million men among us want to become the owners of land but we, for the moment, cannot satisfy their demands..."

There were very few people then who suspected that what this whole scenario, all these 'vegetable plots,' amounted to really was a magician's patter to lull people's vigilance. In Russia it was always necessary to act out this drama of humility as a preliminary to climbing onto the throne. Khrushchev performed folk dances in front of Stalin, Brezhnev feigned a heart attack in front of Kaganovich, Gorbachev performed magic tricks in front of the old mafiosi of the Politburo, whom he had to overcome.

That year, as in the previous year, Ivan pulled himself together for several days. He did the housework in the apartment, walked through the town wearing all his medals, visited the cemetery. The photo of Tatyana in its oval frame set in the monument had turned yellow and the rains had warped it. But to Ivan she seemed strangely alive.

As he pa.s.sed by the town's wall of honor he saw they had already removed his own photo. All that remained was an empty metal frame and the stupid remnant of an inscription "Soviet Hero... from Motor Pool No. 1..."

People did not forget that he was a Hero. For old time's sake the militia would bring him home when he was laid low by vodka. When he did not have enough money for his bottle at the store the salesclerk would give him credit.

Gradually his apartment emptied. He sold the carpet he had bought in Moscow with Tatyana in the old days. He disposed of ll the salable furniture for almost nothing. Gorbachev's speech about little vegetable plots was the last transmission he watched: he swapped his television set for three bottles of vodka. He carried all this out with a casual unconcern that surprised even himself. He actually went as far as to get rid of the rings and earrings preserved in his wife's jewel box and several silver spoons.

One day in autumn he was unable to get hold of money for drinking. The cold wind kept his drinking companions at home; there was a new salesclerk working at the store now; his neighbors laughed and slammed the door in his face when he tried to borrow three rubles. For some time he wandered through the cold, dirty streets, then went home and took his best suit, complete with all the bra.s.s, out of the wardrobe. For a moment he studied the heavy gilded and silvered disks, fingering the cold metal, and removed the Order of the Red Banner of War. He did not have the courage to try to sell it in Borissov. People knew him too well here, and no doubt no one would be tempted. He went through his pockets, gathered up ll the change, and bought a ticket to Moscow. He sold his medal there for twenty-five rubles and got drunk.

After that he went to Moscow almost every week.

The one thing he never touched was his Gold Star. He knew he would never touch it.

So it was that when they went through his clothes at the sobering-up station in Moscow they found two "For Gallantry" medals and the Order of Glory second cla.s.s, all wrapped in a sc.r.a.p of crumpled newspaper. On it Ivan had written in ballpoint pen: "ten rubles" for each medal, "twenty-five rubles" for the Order, so as to avoid any mistakes in his drunken state all the more because the sale would have to be made quickly in a dark corner. The duty officer informed the criminal investigation department of this find.

In the morning they let him go. He walked along slowly, not really knowing where he was going, taking in gulps of fresh, blue air through his parched lips, his eyes screwed up against the dazzling March sun. He only desired one thing: to buy a bottle of liquor quickly and, without a gla.s.s, drinking from the neck, choking on it, to ingest a few lifesaving drafts. He felt through his pockets and took out the medals and the Order, unable to believe his luck. "They haven't taken them," he thought happily. "Hey! Don't they search you anymore at that station...?"

The militiaman detailed to catch Ivan red-handed made his move too fast. Ivan had just unwrapped his treasure. The dealer had not yet taken out his money. He saw the militiaman in plain clothes looming up in front of them and began yawning in a bored manner. "My, my, little father, so those are war medals that you've got there! No, that doesn't interest me. That's a recipe for ending up in the clink, you know. It's not my bag."

The militiaman swore in frustration, flashed his red card and indicated to Ivan a car that was waiting for them.

That evening he went home to Borissov. At the police station they had decided not to pursue it. To begin with he had not been caught red-handed. Besides, he was a Hero, after all. He traveled back on an overcrowded train. Sweating heavily and dazed with exhaustion from standing in line in Moscow, people were carrying great bundles of provisions. March 8, International Women's Day, was drawing near. Standing there, squeezed against a creaking door, Ivan was absently drumming on the smooth, round medals in his pocket and thinking: "If only someone would speak to me... There they all are, with their sour faces... Their mouths shut tight and their bags crammed with fodder... It'd be good to kick the bucket here and now. They'd bury me and it'd be all over and done with. Spring's on the way now, the earth's good and soft already It thaws quickly..."

From Moscow they sent a report on Ivan to the District Committee of the Party. They recounted the episode at the sobering-up station and the trafficking in medals. The matter went all the way up to the Party's Central Committee. "How's this! The Hero of Stalingrad has become an alcoholic who sells his war medals! And just as we're coming up to the fortieth anniversary of the Victory!" Furthermore Gorbachev's magic tricks were turning out not to be magic tricks at all; heads were beginning to roll. It was Year One of the Gorbachevian Revolution.

From the Central Committee they had telephoned to the Regional Committee, from the Regional Committee to the District Committee. The reproaches s...o...b..lled. The Party District Committee Secretary, having received a warning shot, nervously dialed the number of the Regional Military Committee. Ivan was summoned to it by a simple notice. The officer who saw him instructed him to hand over his army doc.u.ments and his Hero of the Soviet Union certificate. "They're going to stick another bit of anniversary sc.r.a.p metal on me," thought Ivan.

Without even opening the army papers, the officer handed them back to Ivan; the Hero's certificate he tossed into the safe with a brisk gesture and slammed the thick little door shut.

"For the time being your certificate will stay with us," he said drily. And in grave tones he added: "In accordance with the instructions of the Party District Committee."

In a futile impulse, Ivan gestured toward the safe, as if reaching for the little door. But the officer stood up and shouted into the corridor: "Sergeant, escort this citizen to the exit."

At the District Committee Ivan thrust aside the switchboard operator who tried to bar his way and burst into the Party Secretary's office. The latter was talking on the telephone and when Ivan accosted him with a shout he put his hand over the receiver and said in a low voice: "I'll have you thrown out by a militiaman."

Having finished his conversation he gave Ivan a nasty look and intoned: "We shall be addressing a request to the higher authorities, Comrade Demidov, to seek the revocation of your award as Hero of the Soviet Union. That's all. This interview is at an end. I shall detain you no further."

"It wasn't you that gave me that award and it won't be you that takes it away from me," muttered Ivan dully.

"Precisely. It's not my responsibility It's within the competence of the Supreme Soviet. That's where they'll review whether a depraved alcoholic has the moral right to wear the Gold Star."

Ivan greeted these words with a heavy shout of laughter.

"No. Not the Star. You won't take that away from me, you bunch of b.a.s.t.a.r.ds. Even the Fritzes at the camp never found it on me. Though they searched me enough times! I screwed it into the palm of my hand. They shouted: 'Hands up!' And I spread my fingers but it stayed in place. Look! Like this!"

And with a bitter smile Ivan showed the Secretary the five points of the Star embedded in his palm. The Secretary was silent.

"That's how it is, Citizen Chief," repeated Ivan, who was no longer smiling. "What? You didn't know I'd been a prisoner of war? Well, no one knew. If it had come out I'd have been rotting in a camp at Kolyma long ago. Go ahead! Call the Military Committee. Let those rats do a bit of research. They might find a little two-month gap in '44. And as for the Star, you'll never take it from me. You'll have to rob my corpse for it..."

Ivan could not bring himself to go home. He dreaded seeing again the empty coat stand in the corridor, the gray pile of dirty linen, the washbasin yellow with rust. For a long time he walked around in the muddy spring streets, and when he noticed someone coming toward him turned aside. Then he made his way around the furniture factory, beyond which there was already an expanse of open country, and emerged in a wasteland that smelled of damp snow. Close by, beneath a layer of spongy ice, a stream murmured softly On the sloping verge the snow had already melted in places, uncovering dark, swollen earth. This earth gave way underfoot in a soft and supple manner. And once more it seemed to Ivan not frightening but warm and tender, like river clay.

"I've lasted too long," thought Ivan. "I should have gone sooner. They'd have buried me with full honors." He realized that throughout that time he had been hoping for a brutal and unexpected end, an end that would have happened of itself and would have swept everything into the void, the dead apartment, the dark entrance where drunkards lingered, himself. That was why he was destroying himself with such abandon, almost joyfully. But the end did not come.

When dusk was beginning to fall Ivan went back into the town, walked along the streets once more the "Progress" Cinema, the District Committee, the militia. Beside the Gastronom store there was a long, serpentine line. One of the men at the end of the line dropped a bag full of empty bottles. He started picking up the pieces, cut his fingers, and swore in a weary, monotonous voice. "If only I could buy half a liter and down it first... otherwise I don't think I'll have the courage," thought Ivan. But he had nothing to pay with. "Okay, I'll try to find the sleeping pills. But it'll have to be done later, or else the neighbors will suspect something."

And he continued wandering. When night came the cold made the stars glitter. The icebound snow crackled underfoot. But there was already a smell of spring on the wind. Close to his home Ivan lifted his head almost all the windows were already dark. It was dark, too, in the courtyard beside the apartment building. Dark and silent. In the silence Ivan heard the light crunch of the snow beneath the feet of a stray dog. Happy at the thought of being able to stroke it and look into its anxious, tender eyes, he turned around. The night wind was causing a ball of crumpled newspaper to roll along the ground...

Ivan went in through the main door and was preparing to climb up to his apartment on the third floor but remembered he should look at the mail. He hardly ever opened his box for weeks at a time, knowing that if something was dropped in it, it was almost certainly by mistake. His daughter sent him three cards a year: on Soviet Army Day, his birthday, and Victory Day. The first two dates were already past, the third was still a long way off. This time he found a letter. Only the upper floors were lit, and where the box was almost total darkness reigned. " Moscow," Ivan made out on the envelope. "It must be the bill from the sobering-up station. h.e.l.l's bells! They don't waste any time. That's the capital for you..."

In the course of his wanderings through the town he had had time to gather his thoughts. He had been thinking about it all with surprising detachment, as if it concerned someone else. He recalled where there was a razor amid the chaos in the kitchen, and in which of the drawers in the chest the pills were kept. He was no longer on good terms with his neighbors on the same floor. Which is why he decided to slip the note asking for someone to come and see him under the door of the apartment below, where Zhora, a robust warehouseman lived. He got on well with him and occa-sionally they had a drink together. "It's all right, he's tough. He's not one to be scared," thought Ivan. "That's important. Someone else might have a heart attack..."

As he climbed up the stairs he was fingering his neck, trying to find where the blood throbbed most strongly. "That must be it, the carotid. Oh! It's really pounding away there. The main thing's to hit it first time off. Otherwise you're going to be running around like a chicken with its throat half cut!"

In the apartment he took out the razor and found the sleeping pills. On a piece of paper he wrote: "Zhora, come to number 84. It's important." Then he went and slipped the note under the door.

Back at home, he made a tour of the apartment, glanced at a photo in the wooden frame: Tatyana and himself, still very young, and in the background palm trees and the misty outline of the mountains. Then, he filled a gla.s.s with water from the tap and began to swallow the pills one after the other.

Soon Ivan felt a thick fog that m.u.f.fled all sounds revolving slowly in his head. He opened the razor and, as if to shave himself, lifted his chin.

At that moment he remembered he had slammed the door shut and that he needed to leave it unlocked, otherwise Zhora would not be able to get in. His mind was still functioning and this afforded him an absurd satisfaction. In the entrance hall he took the medals, wrapped in an old piece of newspaper, out of his coat pocket, together with the letter from the Moscow sobering-up station. He tossed the medals into the drawer and, holding the letter up to the light, opened the envelope unhurriedly. There was nothing official there. The page, covered in regular feminine handwriting, began with these words: "Dear Dad! It's been a long time since I last wrote you, but you've no idea what life is like in Moscow..."

Ivan picked up the envelope and read the sender's address with difficulty: " Moscow, 16 Litovsky Avenue, Flat 37, Demidova 0.I." Feverishly, muddling up lines of text that were already growing blurred, his eye seized upon fragments of sentences: "I've got to know a nice young man... We're thinking of getting married in July... His parents would like to meet you. Come for the May celebrations... You can stay with us for a week or two..."

Ivan could never recall the very last sentence in the letter, even though he saw it absolutely clearly, even repeated it, as it seemed to him, whispering, "The bells are ringing in Moscow... The bells are ringing... And who's going to hear them?"

It was not until the afternoon that Ivan came to. He opened his eyes, then screwed them up against the blinding sunlight beating on the window panes. He was lying on the floor. Above him crouched Zhora, shaking him by the shoulder.

"Dmitrich, Dmitrich! Wake up now, you G.o.dd.a.m.ned veteran! You've sure been boozing it up! Where did you get plastered like that? No, don't shut your eyes, you'll nod off again. Why did you send for me? What's this urgent business, then? To wake you up? Eh? D'you think I've got nothing better to do than come and sober you up?"

Listening to him and scarcely grasping the import of his words, Ivan smiled. Then just as Zhora was preparing to go, Ivan forced open his swollen lips and asked softly: "Zhora, let me have five rubles. I'll pay you back next pension day."

Zhora whistled softly to himself, got up and thrust his hands into his pockets.

"My lord, Dmitrich, you've got some nerve! Now you've found yourself a Pioneer who's done his good deed for the day, I guess you'll be wanting me to bring you the occasional bottle and give you the nipple to suck..."

Then he glanced around the shabby, empty apartment and at Ivan, his thin face devoured by his beard, and said in a conciliatory voice: "Look, I don't have five rubles. Here's three. That'll be enough to take care of your hangover. Yesterday at the Gastronom they had a strong one in at two rubles seventy a bottle. The guys say it's fine..."

Feeling a little better, Ivan doused his head pleasurably under the cold tap for a long time, then went out into the springtime street and made his way unhurriedly to the store, smiling at the warm suns.h.i.+ne.

On his return he cooked some noodles in a saucepan. He ate them slowly with some cheap canned fish. After the meal he emptied a whole packet of was.h.i.+ng powder into the bathtub, gathered up all the linen and clothes and did a great, clumsy wash, the way men do.

When Ivan caught sight of Olya at the railroad station, in the middle of the dense, teeming crowd, she had changed so much it took his breath away. As they made their way toward the subway he could not get used to the idea that this svelte young woman was his daughter. Everything about her was so simple and naturally harmonious neat light gray shoes, black stockings, a full jacket with broad shoulders.

"Goodness, Olya! You've turned into a real westerner!" he said, shaking his head.

She laughed.

"That's right, Dad. 'When in Rome do as the Romans do'! I can't help it. You know what big fish I have to deal with. Only yesterday I was just having my last session with a capitalist who's got factories in seven different countries. With people like that we have to look reasonably presentable or they don't sign our contracts."

"And look at me, a real peasant. You must be ashamed to walk beside me."

"Nonsense, Dad. What are you saying? Not at all! Your Star alone is worth all the rest of them. And as to clothes, don't worry. Tomorrow we'll sort things out. You see, you couldn't visit Alexei's parents in that suit. And, most of all, you need a new s.h.i.+rt."

Ivan actually thought his s.h.i.+rt was the best thing he had on. He had bought it some days before his departure and trying it on had cheered him up he had felt rejuvenated and das.h.i.+ng, like in the old days. What he liked particularly was that the s.h.i.+rt did not constrict his neck; although he b.u.t.toned it up right to the top.

During the past few weeks he had tidied up the apartment and one warm April day had even washed the windows. He washed them slowly, delighting in the freshness and lightness of the air coming into the rooms...

On the following day Olya took him into a big store where a sickly-sweet, suffocating scent hung on the air.

"You know, Dad, we could have bought everything at a Beriozka, of course. I've got vouchers for that. But, you see, first of all my parents-in-law are such sn.o.bs that nothing impresses them. And secondly, your Star wouldn't look right on an imported suit. So we'll find something made at home but good quality."

Wearing this navy blue suit that fitted him well, Ivan looked in the mirror and did not recognize himself.

"There we are," joked Olya, "a real retired general. Now we'll go and buy a couple of s.h.i.+rts and some neckties."

Back at home she tormented him by tying and untying his tie and searching for the best place to fix the Star.

"Leave it, Olya," Ivan finally begged. "It's fine like that. You're fussing over me as if I were a young lady. Anyone would think I was the one getting married..."

"Oh, if only you knew, Dad." Olya sighed. "Nothing's simple. You have to think of everything, plan everything. You have no idea of the circles these big fish move in. They're forever traveling abroad. Their apartment's like a museum. They drink coffee from antique china and the people they mix with are all like that: diplomats, writers, ministers... Hold on a minute, don't move! I'm going to take a little tuck here, while you're wearing it and I'll st.i.tch it up afterward; otherwise the s.h.i.+rt will gape and that won't look very nice... You see, they're really the cream of Moscow society. Alyosha's father went to college with Gorbachev at Moscow State and they're still on first-name terms. Just think! There, one last try and I'll leave you in peace. Goodness, Dad, you're very thin. You're all skin and bone. I suppose you can't find anything in the stores in Borissov... There. That's it. Take a look in the mirror. A real superman! Tomorrow we'll go and buy you some suitable shoes. Then I'll take you out. No. The Star's too high up. Hold on. I'll move it down a bit..."

The visit to the future parents-in-law was due to take place on May 9, Victory Day. Olya had thought this date an excellent choice. They would be showing some doc.u.mentary or other on television. Her father would recall the old days and would talk about his memories. This would be a good topic of conversation. They certainly wouldn't be discussing the latest Paris exhibition with him...

It was true. Nothing was totally simple.

When she had written to her father that the wedding was planned for July she had been slightly antic.i.p.ating events. Alexei talked about this marriage in a somewhat evasive manner. His parents, for their part, were very kind to her. But in their very worldly kindness Olya scented the risk of all her plans collapsing. Indeed it would not even be a collapse as such. Simply a friendly smile, a sweet and mildly surprised look from beneath a raised eyebrow. "But, you poor little idiot, how could you ever hope to take your place in our milieu?"

She had noticed this smile for the first time when she had told them she was working as an interpreter at the Center. Alexei's mother smiled absently, stirring her coffee with a little spoon. Meanwhile his father grinned broadly and exclaimed in somewhat theatrical tones: "Ha! You don't say!" And they exchanged rapid glances.

"Do they know exactly what my work is?" wondered Olya, in torment. "Of course they do. But maybe they don't give a good G.o.dd.a.m.n? Or do they put up with me on account of Alyosha? Because they don't want to upset him? Surely even he must know..."

Of late this marriage had become an obsession with her. It seemed to her that if she succeeded in getting Alexei to marry her it would not only be a new era but a completely different life. Good-bye to snow-covered Ya.s.senievo, good-bye to that room in the system-built apartment building! Now it would be downtown Moscow and a prestige building and an entrance hall with a caretaker and her husband's official car parked under the window. All this a.s.sembly line espionage would come to an end; Alexei's parents would find her honorable employment in some export trade department. And perhaps Alexei would be posted abroad, to an emba.s.sy; she would go with him and it would be her turn to pa.s.s through those customs barriers at Sheremetevo, from beyond which her clients generally waved her good-bye. Or rather not through the same barrier but straight in at the diplomats' entrance.

She had talked to Svetka about all this one day in winter. The latter, spinning her hula hoop furiously, said to her: "The main thing, Olya, you know, is not to let yourself go. You haven't got there yet. Do you remember Chekhov's story, 'The Eel'...? There it is, already caught by the gills but it gives a flick of its tail and, presto! it heads for the open sea... Now, listen carefully to my advice: get them to invite your father. He's a Hero, after all. Get him to put on ah his medals and take him along to your future parents-in-law. So it'll be a bit like a family gathering already... Well, what's embarra.s.sing about that? The only embarra.s.sing thing in the whole world is trying to put your pants on over your head. Go for it! I know them, these little diplomats... they're as slippery as eels. Don't believe it's happened till you've got the stamp on your pa.s.sport."

She stopped spinning and the hula hoop slipped lazily to her feet. Picking up the tape measure she measured her waist.

"Oh, for heaven's sake! I just can't work off all those goodies from the New Year! That's right, laugh. Go ahead and make fun of a poor, sick old woman. I find you a fiance and you don't even thank me! Once you're married you "won't know me anymore. You'll be driving around in a limousine with your little spouse. But I don't care. By then my Vovka will have become a general in Afghanistan. We'll be just as good as you... Right, I must get spinning again, otherwise the capitalists won't love me anymore."

In the morning Olya went off to work and Ivan spent the whole day strolling about Moscow. He felt like an impressive retired officer ambling with a measured tread along the springtime streets. The pa.s.sersby eyed his Gold Star and people gave up their seats to him on the subway. Sitting on a bench in the park he would have liked to get into conversation with someone and quite by chance mention his daughter. Here's how it had happened. The two of them had been simple workers and their daughter was such a highflier that now she was working with foreign diplomats.

He would have liked to tell how they had bought his suit, talk about her future parents-in-law, about the leather wallet she had given him. Within its fragrant folds he had found a hundred-ruble note. "That's for your meals, Dad," Olya had explained. "I don't have time to cook lunch for you..."

One day walking past the Bolshoi Theater, he had overhead a conversation between two women who had a provincial look about them.

"No chance, I've asked. Because of Victory Day they're only selling tickets to veterans. And foreigners, of course, who pay in currency."

"Maybe you need to grease the administrator's palm," said the other one.

"Oh sure. Then he'll sell us some! You bet. I guess he's desperate for our crumpled old rubles!"

Near the Bolshoi box office, across the square from the Kremlin, Ivan saw an enormous buzzing crowd, seething angrily. It began in the tunnel leading from the subway, stretched up the staircase and spilled out into the open toward the gla.s.s doors of the box office.

"It's always like this," grumbled one woman. "You come to Moscow once in a lifetime, and what happens? All the tickets go to the veterans!"

"What do you mean the veterans?" someone else cut in. "Everything's put on one side, to be sold at three times the price."

"That's all poppyc.o.c.k. What they're after is foreign currency. There's no oil left, so they're selling culture!" shouted a third from the heart of the throng.

Unb.u.t.toning his raincoat so his Star could be seen, Ivan threaded his way toward the box office. "I'll give Olya a surprise," he thought happily. "I'll come home and say in an offhand way: Why don't we go to the theater this evening? To the Bolshoi, perhaps?' She'll be amazed. 'But how? We'll never get any tickets.' And then, with a wave of my wand, 'Never get any?' says I. 'Look, here they are.' "

Outside the crowd was pressing against a metal barrier, beside which stood three militiamen. Seeing the Hero's Gold Star, they opened the barrier a little and let Ivan through toward the box office. There, in front of the doors that were still shut, a few dozen veterans had gathered. Ivan studied the rows of decorations on the lapels of their jackets and even noticed a couple of Gold Stars on one of them. Several of them looked as if they had been waiting for a long while and, to pa.s.s the time, they were telling one another about their war experiences. The sky had been overcast since the morning and now damp snow was falling, brought on by an icy wind. People s.h.i.+vered, turned up their coat collars. Near the door stood a disabled man in a worn overcoat, all hunched up, supported on his single leg.

"Hey there, old guard!" called out Ivan. "What are we waiting here for? Aren't there any more tickets?"

"We're waiting to be called," came the reply. "At midday they'll count us again and let us in."

And indeed at noon precisely the door opened and a sleepy woman with a discontented air announced: "There are a hundred and fifty tickets on sale. The rule is two tickets per person, which means one for the veteran and one for a member of his family. Those who've got numbered tickets form a line. The others, go to the back."

Large snowflakes were falling and a bitter wind was blowing. Not far away, emerging from the gates of the Kremlin, came a cavalcade of official cars, as long and gleaming as pianos. And there stood the crowd, thrust back by the barriers and the militiamen, a crowd awaiting a miracle and eyeing the veterans with fierce jealousy, as they formed into line.

"Thirty-one, thirty-two, thirty-three..." mumbled the drowsy woman in haughty tones.

And the old men, giving a start, bustled up and hastily took their places in the column.

"Is this what we spilled our blood for?" called out a mocking voice in front of Ivan.

Looking more closely Ivan saw the face of a man of the people crinkled up in a smile. It was the disabled man who stood several places in front of him. The face struck him as familiar.

Ivan ended up as number sixty-two. He received two tickets for The Stone Guest. Emerging from the crowd, he went into the tunnel and headed for the subway. Pa.s.sing a dark corner near some broken-down vending machines, he once more noticed the disabled veteran. Confronting him were two smartly dressed young men pa.s.sing remarks at him while interrupting each other. Ivan stopped and p.r.i.c.ked up his ears. Grasping the old man by the lapel, one of them barked at him sneeringly: "Listen, Pops, don't try to get smart with us. We don't want the prices to go sky high, do we? You always sell them for five rubles. Why are you s.c.r.e.w.i.n.g us around? Take ten and f.u.c.k off and buy a bottle. You're never going to find a anyone who'll give you fifteen, you old crook. They're not even in the orchestra."

"Well, in that case, I'm not selling them. You can take it or leave it," replied the veteran.

He swung around on his crutches and tried to move away. But one of them pushed him toward the vending machines and seized his collar.

"Now listen to me, you G.o.dd.a.m.ned Hero of Borodino. I'm going to smash your G.o.dd.a.m.ned crutches for you. You'll have to crawl home."

Ivan went up to them and asked in conciliatory tones: "Now then, what's going on? Why are you young fellows badgering this old soldier?"