In The Sanctuary Of Outcasts_ A Memoir Part 7

"What the f.u.c.k difference do that make!?"

"That sort of thing affects people. They have nightmares. They are afraid to leave their houses. They get depressed. They live in fear after that sort of experience."

"You think I give a f.u.c.k!?" Then Link said, "Why you always worried 'bout other people?"

I asked Link to imagine what it would feel like if someone carjacked his mother.

"My momma ain't got no good car."

I obviously wasn't getting through. "Did you ever get caught?" I asked.

Link was almost caught once, but only because he abandoned his well-laid plan. He made a spontaneous decision.

"There was this Little Debbie truck," he said, "making stops on St. Charles Avenue." Link said the driver left the engine running to make a quick delivery. Link a.s.sumed the money bag was inside the truck. "I jump in, take off. That motherf.u.c.ker was a stick s.h.i.+ft!" Link jerked his body back and forth as he described the drive down St. Charles Avenue. "Zebra Cakes flying all over the motherf.u.c.kin' place! Drove five blocks. Then hit a motherf.u.c.kin' streetcar pole!"

"Were you hurt?"

"f.u.c.k, yeah," Link said, "racked my nuts."

Link's stories were outrageous, but he had a sharp sense of humor, and I sensed, deep down, he was a good person. I didn't understand how he could randomly point guns at people.

"If you saw me walking down the street in New Orleans, would you point a gun at me and take my money?"

"No," Link said. "I know you."

"Then how can you just point a gun in a woman's face and never think about it again?"

"When you on crack," Link said, "you don't see no faces."

Link joined me often. Most of his youth had been spent in and out of juvenile detention centers. And Carville was his sixth go-round in prison as an adult. Link told me he was only twenty-seven years old. He had been shot four times. "Bullet burns like a motherf.u.c.ker," he said. "How many times Clark Kent been shot?" he asked, laughing at the absurdity of the thought. "f.u.c.k, I forgot, bullets just bounce off Clark Kent!" Link threw his head back, laughed, and walked away.

Link and I were different in many ways. But I had trouble in my twenty-seventh year, too.

On a humid summer morning in 1987 in Oxford, I received a call from my banker, a lovely young woman named Wendy, who had just been promoted from teller to loan officer. When I entered her office, I saw the look on her face, and I knew. My heart pounded fast, but I tried to hide my fear.

"This is the hardest thing I've ever had to say," she said in her sweet southern drawl. Wendy looked down at her desk and said it had come to her attention that I had been kiting checks. Close to tears, she told me she was going to be forced to call my loans. She would have to close my checking account, at least for a while. And, as if the words almost wouldn't come out of her mouth, she was required to complete a form that would notify the FBI of my activity.

I left her office and went to see my only local investor. With nowhere else to turn, I explained what had happened. When he asked the amount of the overdraft, I told him: "About $8,000." He seemed relieved. He called a meeting of the other investors. They agreed to invest another $30,000. We opened a new account at another bank in town. The investor's secretary would serve as bookkeeper. The next day, I covered the overdraft, paid off the loan, and went about my business of publis.h.i.+ng the Oxford Times Oxford Times. I got the sense that, in spite of my poor financial management, my investors liked what I was doing with the newspaper. I had also convinced myself that my actions were justified because the newspaper was important to the community.

I didn't tell Linda about the incident. I was rattled, but I had a newspaper to get out. No time to waste with worry. I would tell her when the FBI called. But they never did. The incident was never investigated. I never heard another word about it.

In a way, I did feel bulletproof. And one thing was clear. As long as I raised the money to pay my overdrafts, n.o.body seemed to take kiting too seriously.

I also figured if the investors had put up another $30,000 after I'd been caught kiting, they would follow me anywhere. I embarked on an aggressive campaign to attract new advertisers. I fired our delivery boys and s.h.i.+fted to direct mail delivery of the Oxford Times Oxford Times. It added $2,000 per week to our expenses, but I was certain it would pay off. I also hired more writers. Better stories, more complete coverage, would help me compete against the Eagle Eagle.

But the new advertisers never arrived. Seven months later, I stood in a U.S. bankruptcy court in Oxford, Mississippi.

My investors lost $90,000; local vendors lost more than $50,000.

I had failed, but I did not regret trying. And I refused to end my publis.h.i.+ng career in failure. Even as I stood in bankruptcy-an attorney at my side and creditors to my back-I knew I would try again. I would take a lesson from the Oxford Eagle Oxford Eagle. Its editorial restraint had a financial upside. I would move to Gulfport, a market thirty times the size of Oxford. I would avoid conflict with those in power. I would publish a glossy magazine that showcased the Mississippi Coast. I would focus more on making money and less on changing the world. I had already talked to Linda about my plan. She agreed to get a job to support our family while I raised money for the new venture. All I needed was $50,000.

As I turned to face those I owed but could not pay, I noticed a singular absence in the courtroom: reporters. The Eagle Eagle's indolence extended even to my demise. I had launched the Oxford Times Oxford Times precisely because the established daily was unresponsive to situations like this. Now, I was the beneficiary of their lethargy. There would be no detailed account of my debts, no questions about shuffling funds, no printed opinions surrounding my failure, and no testimony from local merchants who had lost money. No one was there to tell the story. precisely because the established daily was unresponsive to situations like this. Now, I was the beneficiary of their lethargy. There would be no detailed account of my debts, no questions about shuffling funds, no printed opinions surrounding my failure, and no testimony from local merchants who had lost money. No one was there to tell the story.

CHAPTER 23.

Doc's job as an office clerk afforded him access to inside information. As a clerk, he made copies, transported memorandums between departments, and overheard conversations between guards. Sometimes he made extra copies of memos to pa.s.s among the inmates. We often knew about prison initiatives before the guards did.

I asked Doc if he'd heard that the patients would be relocated.

Doc had read all about the plans to move the leprosy patients. One plan called for handing out an annual stipend so patients could pay for their own housing. Another plan required displaced patients to be relocated at a nursing home. Another option included construction of a new set of dorms on the other side of the colony so the inmates and patients could not commingle.

The Bureau of Prisons planned to turn Carville into a ma.s.sive prison with more than a thousand inmates. And the primary objective of each proposal was simple: remove the leprosy patients.

On a rainy Sunday afternoon, when Doc took a break from his reading, I told him about my plans to write a magazine expose about Carville. I recounted Ella's journey to Carville. I told him about my shared history with Annie Ruth at the LSU football games. I gave him a detailed account of Link's carjacking escapades.

Doc raised an eyebrow. "Don't believe everything these people tell you."

"The inmates?" I asked. "Or the leprosy patients?"

"Both," he said. "They make this c.r.a.p up." Doc, in a rather condescending tone, reminded me that the patients were inst.i.tutionalized. The inmates, he said, had nothing better to do with their time than tell lies.

I felt like I had disappointed him. Like a younger sibling who was naive and gullible. Doc was annoyed that he had to live with these people. They were beneath his intellect. He didn't want them as friends. But I believed the stories. The details were too vivid to be fabricated. My instincts, everything I had learned as a reporter, told me they were not lying.

"They don't have any reason to lie," I said.

Doc didn't answer. He went back to reading his medical journal. A moment later, he said, "Just don't believe everybody."

The photograph that appeared in Entrepreneur Entrepreneur magazine, 1991. magazine, 1991.

CHAPTER 24.

Carville was full of men whose grand schemes trumped common sense. Steve Read and I were two of the best examples. Three weeks after I declared bankruptcy in Oxford, my family and I moved to Gulfport, Mississippi. We lived rent free in my aunt Viola's empty house. Linda took a job as a receptionist at a local advertising agency. I stayed at home, wrote a business plan, and sought out investors. My mother and father encouraged me to get a job. "You're obviously not cut out for business," my father told me. But he didn't understand. I'd read stories about businessmen who rebounded from bankruptcy. "Success is always built upon failure," I'd read. I believed in second chances, and I was perfectly positioned for a comeback. Because my financial troubles in Oxford never hit the press, my reputation in my hometown of Gulfport remained unblemished.

I presented investors with my business plan for a glossy lifestyle publication for the Mississippi Gulf Coast, a metropolitan region situated between New Orleans and Mobile. Within three months, I had convinced a local businessman to invest $50,000 and I launched Coast Magazine Coast Magazine.

In the first year of publication, our circulation grew to twenty thousand. It surpa.s.sed our wildest expectations. Linda quit her job at the advertising agency and joined me as editor of the publication. Our magazine made the people and places of the coast look beautiful. New investors approached me about getting in on the action. I launched a sister publication, Coast Business Journal Coast Business Journal. Soon, I bought out the businessman who initially invested.

I hired a ragtag crew in the early days, men and women with real talent who had never been given a chance. I trained them and, for the most part, they rose to the occasion. An elementary school teacher's a.s.sistant ascended to the position of editor. A recovering drug addict and ex-con handled door-to-door subscription sales. A high school dropout worked his way up to the position of art director. A marginally literate woman became a top salesperson among the restaurateurs and nightclub owners of Biloxi.

I owned a burgeoning media empire, and I was having a great time again. The advertising dollars rolled in, as did the awards. The plaques and trophies and certificates covered the walls of our offices. Linda and I moved into a new home one block from the beach. I bought a vintage Mercedes for Linda, a boat for myself.

Our magazine featured never-before-published photos of Elvis Presley, as well as rare images of Jayne Mansfield taken the day before her fatal automobile accident (the starlet was photographed straddling a large cannon on an island just off the Mississippi coast). Each issue featured exquisite architectural photography highlighting the finest homes in the region, including full-color spreads of the home of Judge and Mrs. Walter Gex. We added fun departments like "People to Watch," "20 Questions," and "Nostalgia Yearbook," wherein we scanned high school yearbook photos of bank presidents, mayors, beauty queens, and politicians, along with a few notorious residents serving prison time.

I set out to build an empire and everything that went along with it. As we celebrated the first anniversary of Coast Magazine Coast Magazine, I presented a five-year plan of ascent to my employees.

The first year, I would buy Louisiana Life Louisiana Life magazine, a financially distressed publication with a devout subscriber base that in its heyday had won a National Magazine Award. It would be the first acquisition in building a network of city and regional magazines. magazine, a financially distressed publication with a devout subscriber base that in its heyday had won a National Magazine Award. It would be the first acquisition in building a network of city and regional magazines.

The second year, I would purchase real estate-the Hewes Building, a five-story structure across the street from Hanc.o.c.k Bank. Equipped with an antique, hand-operated cage elevator, replete with a full-time operator, the building would serve as our corporate headquarters.

In year three, I would purchase a yacht. I would christen it Magazine Magazine, and it would be available to all employees to entertain clients, advertisers, and prospective investors.

In year four, I would launch a weekly trade journal ent.i.tled Business South Business South. The weekly tabloid would be sent free to every business owner in the southeastern United States. It would function as a quasi Reader's Digest Reader's Digest for businesspeople in the South. for businesspeople in the South.

And in year five, in a crowning triumph, I would purchase the Sun Herald Sun Herald, the coast's daily newspaper with gross receipts in the $20 million range.

The community embraced our mission because we made the coast look good. During an introduction to a local Rotary Club, an economic development expert called us a "s.h.i.+ning star" in an otherwise dismal economy. My mother and father beamed with pride when their friends complimented my good work. And my friends seemed delighted with our achievements. My employees felt the same way. They were excited about the prospects of our future, too. And I promised, if they worked hard to reach my goals, they would all be rewarded handsomely.

In less than a year after bankruptcy, I was back, and on my way to building a media dynasty.

But even my entrepreneurial spirit was overshadowed by Steve Read's. As CEO of Read Industries, at age thirty-five, Read had owned a fleet of private jets chartered by the likes of Reba McIntire and golf pro Jack Nicklaus. Oil Mop, a corporation he bought out of bankruptcy in the late 1980s, was the first to arrive at the Exxon Valdez Exxon Valdez spill in Alaska, resulting in a multimillion-dollar contract for Steve. He expanded his regional airline business, L'Express Airlines, just before jet fuel prices skyrocketed. spill in Alaska, resulting in a multimillion-dollar contract for Steve. He expanded his regional airline business, L'Express Airlines, just before jet fuel prices skyrocketed.

Steve had been sentenced to four years for money laundering, but he was able to accomplish one thing most of my fellow inmates could not. He retained his a.s.sets. His wife drove a Range Rover, lived in an opulent New Orleans condo, and wore Ralph Lauren ensembles. Steve used his money to hire an entourage of inmates to work as his personal employees. He had an inmate chef who prepared meals so he could dine privately. A former personal trainer guided him through a weight-lifting regimen and consulted with his chef about Steve's dietary needs. A maid washed and ironed his clothes, made up his bed, swept and mopped his floor, and provided other domestic services. He had his own inmate barber. His affluence, at least compared with the other inmates, was apparent to everyone. Link called him "Richie Rich."

Steve had a big smile, perfect teeth, and a year-round tan. He sunbathed on the shuffleboard courts in the inmate yard. A reporter for the Baton Rouge Advocate Baton Rouge Advocate who visited the facility saw Steve and his inner circle soaking in rays. The reporter described the scene as convicts basking in the sun like repentant lizards. After the story, Steve picked up on the term. "Off to repent," he would say, gathering his towel and baby oil. who visited the facility saw Steve and his inner circle soaking in rays. The reporter described the scene as convicts basking in the sun like repentant lizards. After the story, Steve picked up on the term. "Off to repent," he would say, gathering his towel and baby oil.

Steve wasn't very popular with the inmates outside his employment circle. With his entourage following, he publicly taunted prisoners about their crimes. To Vic, a man charged with arson, Steve would yell, "Hey, Vic, got a match?" To Semmes, a car dealer who rolled back odometers, he called out across the prison grounds, "Semmes, can you do a little work on my release date?!" And to Daniel Stephens, the banker from Texas who had his Thoroughbreds a.s.sa.s.sinated, Steve would burst into a loud horse's neigh.

But Steve took a liking to me. We'd never met prior to Carville, but we had a business relations.h.i.+p. I published Louisiana Life Louisiana Life magazine, which served as the official, in-flight magazine of Steve's regional airline. In return, his company purchased the back cover advertis.e.m.e.nt in our magazine at a cost of $5,000 per issue. magazine, which served as the official, in-flight magazine of Steve's regional airline. In return, his company purchased the back cover advertis.e.m.e.nt in our magazine at a cost of $5,000 per issue.

Steve asked me to join him in his room on weekends to share his specially prepared meals. And he promised, as soon as a slot opened up, to include me in his invitation-only Friday game night where former executives-men who once wielded great power, but now were not allowed to possess paper money-gathered to vie for economic domination in a game of Monopoly.

CHAPTER 25.

Steve, the ultimate entrepreneur, managed to get the best job in prison. He was clerk to the chaplains. No guards supervised him. He answered only to Father Reynolds and Reverend Ray, the Protestant minister. He also organized the call-out lists that allowed inmates to leave the prison side to attend church, prepare for services, practice for choir, polish bra.s.s, organize hymnals, or perform other tasks to keep the chapels in good shape.

Steve had access to the chaplains' library. He pulled a few strings to get permission for me to a.s.sist in organizing the collection. Steve and I spent hours poring over the books and videos and collections. I had access to doc.u.ments the prison library could never acquire, including historic films and texts about the colony.

I discovered that Carville was planning a one hundredth anniversary celebration. Nearly a century had pa.s.sed since 1894, when the first victims of leprosy arrived late in the night at the abandoned plantation. The anniversary event would include a barbecue, a golf tournament, speeches, and a visit from Louisiana's reigning governor, Edwin Edwards.

I came across some fascinating facts in Father Reynolds's study. One book speculated that St. Francis of a.s.sisi had not experienced stigmata, but actually suffered from leprosy. The open wounds from advancing leprosy on his palms and forehead were, according to one historian, mistaken for the wounds of Christ.

Another book, about a leper colony in Hawaii, especially piqued my interest. The settlement, established before Carville was the national leprosarium, was situated at the base of stunning cliffs in the Hawaiian Islands. In the 1860s, leprosy spread through the population. Hawaiians had little immunity to the disease, thought to be carried by Chinese immigrants, and by the 1870s more than eight hundred men, women, and children were quarantined.

Father Damien, a priest from Belgium, served as the resident priest to the lepers of Hawaii. Not much was known about leprosy in the 1870s, and most people, even physicians and priests, were terrified of the disease. Damien conquered his own fears, subjecting himself to repeated, extended exposure to the infected. He invited victims of the disease into his cottage. He embraced sufferers who had open wounds. He entered the isolated death huts to deliver last rites.

When he arrived on the island in 1873, he referred to those confined to the settlement-and himself-as "We lepers." It was foreshadowing. Within the decade, Damien would contract leprosy. And when he did succ.u.mb to the disease in 1887, in the eyes of many, he left this life as a saint. A nun who sat at Damien's deathbed claimed that, in pa.s.sing, his face had lost its disfigurement.

The biggest perk that came along with volunteering in the chaplains' library was freedom of movement. The library was the farthest point away from the prison side of the colony. As I walked to and from work each afternoon, I watched the Sisters of Charity, baskets in hand, wandering under the trees in search of fallen pecans. I noticed the smile and soft touch they shared whenever they pa.s.sed a leprosy patient.

The sisters' kindness inspired others, too. Carville's top official, Dr. Jacobson, erect and imposing in his white naval uniform, softened when he greeted a patient. He treated each patient with tenderness and respect.

Many days I would pa.s.s Harry while he was pus.h.i.+ng another patient to the foot clinic, or Ella on her way to the canteen, or Father Reynolds riding his bike, his brown Franciscan robe dragging just above the concrete floor.

Almost every day as I walked to Father Reynolds's study, I pa.s.sed Sister Teresa Pazos. She was one of the Sisters of Charity, but she was also a leprosy patient. The disease had ravaged her nose and fingers. She navigated the corridors in a huge electric wheelchair. She could not have weighed more than ninety pounds. I had no idea if she contracted leprosy while caring for patients here, or if she chose to come to Carville after her infection. The soft hum of her wheelchair motor foreshadowed her appearance from around a corner. She never made eye contact with me, but I looked forward to seeing her. Whenever we pa.s.sed, a visceral warmth flowed through my body. Just being in her presence made me feel light and peaceful.

I didn't fully understand why she had that effect on me, but I was beginning to feel certain about one thing. Carville was sacred s.p.a.ce.

One late summer afternoon while I was dusting the tops of books, Father Reynolds pa.s.sed through his study, and I asked how long he had been at Carville.

"I came here in 1983."

He was approaching a decade. The same amount of time it took Damien to contract the disease in Hawaii. Father Reynolds's willingness to sacrifice so much, to confine himself here with the very last leprosy patients in America, made me feel like I was in the presence of a righteous and devout saint.

I told Father Reynolds that I admired his bravery. He looked a little confused. "You came here to help the leprosy patients," I said, stating the obvious.

Father Reynolds smiled. "The golf course was the big attraction."

I knew he was downplaying his own work. Father Reynolds was the first priest to leave the altar during the Eucharist and greet the patients. He touched their hands. He welcomed newcomers with a hug. He was committed to bringing faith and compa.s.sion to the outcasts.

"Do you worry that you'll catch it?" I asked.

Father Reynolds's perpetual smile left him. "No, of course not."

Since the time Carville had opened a hundred years ago, he explained, no health worker had ever contracted the disease. I wanted to ask about the little nun zipping about the colony, but I didn't.

"No one has been forced to come, or stay, here in over thirty years," he said.